Ep 0129.s9 – Bonus – Being Ourselves

Laurie in her straw hat in a ray of sunshine holding a bottle of water at the park.
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Back down to the park with my trusty Roland 05 recorder and a bottle of water where I’m actually chatting with you as I walk.

Podcast Recap

Walking around the park again! I ask BCs to stop by and post hellos. I let go the idea that I need to be different than myself. Thanks to Dawny for being such a supportive BC. Lessons from voice acting and my latest commercial clip. Appreciating Amy from Wisconsin and Sue from UK and their quilting talents. Why it’s good not to eat our feelings – thoughts after watching TLC’s My 600 lb. Life.

Mentioned

Blog With Amy’s Quilt

TLC’s My 600 Lb. Life

My new show’s web site, Stories and Voice.

The Start of the main show – Day 1

The finale of the main show – Day 120

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

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Ep 0128.s8 – Bonus – All You Need is Love

Laurie sitting under a tree. She looks tired but happy.
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It was a hard slog to the top of the mountain after all of these weeks, but I made it! Here I’m enjoying the top Zen Place and feeling proud of myself.

Podcast Recap

Love is all around at the very Top Zen place and I enjoy taking a breather after working so hard on my new show, Stories and Voice. I let go of seeing all of the world from only my POV and making assumptions based on that. We send out love and positive energy to BC Jo and we welcome new BC, Kathy. Big shout outs to BC Pat for encouraging me on Facebook and to BC Fionna for writing and singing the theme song for Stories and Voice. I’m on the bravery report for asking for help.

Field of purple wild flowers

I loved coming upon this field of bright purple wild flowers on this foggy morning hike.

Tiger the cat's big green eyes close up

What can I say? Tiger is my constant companion when I am editing the show and I love him. xoxox

Mentioned

My new show’s web site, Stories and Voice.

Subscribe or leave a review for Stories and Voice on iTunes

Voice Actor, Paul Strikwerda’s, excellent blog post that inspired today’s letting go segment

Last show with the snippet from Stories and Voice

The Start of the main show – Day 1

The finale of the main show – Day 120

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

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Ep 0127.s7 – Bonus – Easter on the Mountain

Laurie Smiling in her hiking hat
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I’m feeling bright eyed and bushy tailed at the next to top Zen Place early Easter.

Podcast Recap

Our Easter ‘EGG-stravaganza!’ First I ponder my latest tussle with diet mentality, then I share a short clip of Mark and my visit to a familiar spot. I play a snippet of my new podcast, Stories and Voice, featuring the show theme written and sung by BC Fionna, an excerpt of a cowboy story written by Mark and voiced by professional voice actor, Jacques Du Long, and part of the interesting interview I had with Jacques about his history and why he auditioned to voice Mark’s story. Dawny’s EGG-cellent Foolish fun wraps up our Easter visit to the Next to Top Zen place.

Mentioned

My new show, Stories and Voice. Be brave and submit some writing, songs or try your hand at voice acting! All are welcome from seasoned pro to newbie with a dream who is willing to work their piece.

Stories and Voice

The podcast artwork for Stories and Voice by my friend, Arliss

Women in Animation

Day 1

Day 120

http://intuitiveeating.org

Is a free online forum for people who focus on emotional healing and who want to learn to eat based on what their bodies’ need.

Based around this book and program:

Intuitive Eating

Descanso Gardens

Laurie and Mark smiling under a tree

Mark and me resting on the good old podcast bench by the dry river bed at Descanso Gardens.

Poppies and Daisies in a field on a sunny day

The new Native Californian Plant area at Descanso Gardens

Close up lilac bloom

Lilacs in bloom at Descanso Gardens

Laurie and Mark on a roller coaster

Mark and me screamin’ on my birthday trip

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Interview Guest: Writer, Mark Weaver
Interview Guest: Professional Voice Actor, Jacques Du Long
Foolish Fun Announcer: Mark Weaver
Foolish Funner: Dawny

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

Stories and Voice Theme:
Music by Fionna Lane, Lyrics by Fionna Lane and Laurie Weaver.

Cowboy Story Music:
Wagons Ho, Licensed by the awesome folk at http://www.ibaudio.com
(I highly recommend them when you need quality royalty free music for your project).

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
    http://www.freesound.org/people/plingativator/sounds/188873/
  • Background Tune/Beat
    http://www.freesound.org/people/siakitty/sounds/38478/
  • Girl’s Laughter
    http://www.freesound.org/people/choplin/sounds/109759/
  • Phone Ring
    http://www.freesound.org/people/winsx87/sounds/152028/
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Changing For The Braver – Celebrate Each Act of Bravery

Laurie shows off a purple butterfly bracelet in the camellia forest
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I celebrated doing two brave things by buying this crocheted butterfly bracelet and visiting the camellias at Descanso Gardens

How Much Do You REALLY Celebrate Your Small Milestones?

This was a question my acting teacher asked us in class. The process of acting can be scary, thrilling, emotional. It takes risk to reveal yourself on stage (or on the mic). Each success is a victory. It should not be discounted. Each week I would have some new success in class, and the next week my teacher would ask,

Laurie, How did you celebrate?

I would look away, nodding, and changing the topic. I had heard of this advice before. In weight loss programs, in school, In every self-help book.

Celebrate small victories!

For me, making my bed in the morning is a victory. But I couldn’t see myself buying commemorative items for it. Every time I eat when I’m hungry instead of bored it’s a victory, but if I treated myself to a special tea or treat each time, I would soon be drinking and eating for celebration all day long and never get hungry again.

I can come up with zillions of excuses why it is STUPID to “have to celebrate” small victories.

Notice what I wrote there? HAVE to celebrate. Another chore in my mind has been added to my plate. The very idea of ME celebrating my own work/accomplishment/bravery is a chore in my tangled up compulsive mind. Don’t want another chore, so I don’t want to celebrate.

Wah? Crazy making. This is a hidden challenge I hadn’t let go of – mostly since I had no awareness of it. Besides being prone to negative and all or nothing thinking, which means I tend to teflon good comments away as BS while welcoming the slings and arrows of Zingers deep within, I had a wrong headed image that celebrating what I accomplish is a chore, not a joy.

Well this attitude would not fly with my excellent teacher. Last week she made a point that my acting would stall if I didn’t MAKE TIME AND SPACE, to even in a very small way, celebrate my victories. And I realized this was true in life as well as art. I NEEDED to learn to let in my own good thoughts about myself, my work and my bravery. Not for show, not for armor, not even for compliance to my teacher’s wishes. I needed to start being my own best friend, fan and mentor. I needed to learn how to show myself genuine love and appreciation so I would respond to these good feelings and grow in a positive way.

I don’t care how many good friends, loved ones or BCs we have, they cannot be there for every moment of our positive growth. As a teacher, I know that reinforcement works. Techers don’t have those gold stars for nothing! So the best way to reinforce our positive accomplishment is to get in the habit of acknowledging and celebrating each victory, large and small, ourselves.

I won’t lie, I find this challenging.

But I am determined to do whatever it takes to improve as an actor – even if it means being nice to myself!

(Just the fact I wrote that last sentence SHOWS how deeply my knee-jerk negativity habit is intrenched regarding my performance in art and life)

Celebrate, Celebrate, Dance to the Music!

Last week I did two brave things.

  1. I asked someone for help without apologizing for the inconvenience of me asking them.
  2. I tried for a voice acting job I want without talking myself out of it with excuses.

So I took myself to Descanso just to see the Camellias in bloom. While there I found the butterfly bracelet featured in the photo above. It is a knitted trinket. It didn’t cost very much, but the butterflies are a symbol of change. Each time I see them on my wrist I’m reminded, that I am

Changing for the Braver

And last acting class, I sang on stage.

Time for a diamond tiara of bravery!

Oh yah, I have that, Thanks Suz!

Stuffed Eeyore donkey toy wearing a tiara with the word BRAVE worked into it

My 50 year old Eeyore wears my BRAVE tiara which was a birthday gift from Suz. It is symbolic.

Might be to take it off Eeyore and wear it myself!

xoxoxoxoxoxo

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Ep 0126.s6 – Bonus – A Valentine for BCs

Laurie holding a bouquet of roses, tulips, mums and other flowers in pink, purple and yellow.
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Happy Valentine’s Day! I love my bouquet from Mark. He said none of the arrangements at the store were what he thought I would like, so he bought individual flowers that he knew I’d love and arranged them himself. Love that! Making effort shows you care, so I decided to show how much I care for you BCs by making a Valentine’s Day show. xoxoxoxox

Podcast Recap

Happy Valentine’s Day! This bonus show is my valentine to the BCs who have listened, learned, loved and supported me and one another throughout the run of Compulsive Overeating Diary. I’ll ponder letting go of my old self image and read you my latest blog post about acting bravery. You’ll hear about my newest show, Stories and Voice, and how you can be brave and participate too! Our newest brave BC Heba, calls via Speakpipe to ask for support and I’ll share some of the resources I sent her. I find a poem by Thomas Hardy called ‘An Experience’ that really speaks to me for today’s edition of Laurie’s Stories. And we’ll finish up our Valentine treat with another song by Josh Woodward that speaks to my creative wish for all of our hearts, called ‘The Dreamers’.

Mentioned

My new show, Stories and Voice. Be brave and submit some writing, songs or try your hand at voice acting! All are welcome from seasoned pro to newbie with a dream who is willing to work their piece.

Read the Poem, An Experience, by Thomas Hardy

Day 1

Day 120

Episode Index so you can find all of the shows in between!

The Blog post I read about acting bravery and my new show

The Holiday Show

Resources I mentioned to Heba

1. Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin’s Win the Diet War

http://winthedietwar.com

Dr. Nina is an actual psychoanalyst, author and speaker specializing in weight, body image and disordered eating. (I am just a regular person, so I’m not an authority)

Dr. Nina also has a free group on FB where people support each other. I am there from time to time as a group member.

2. http://intuitiveeating.org

Is another free online forum for people who focus on emotional healing and who want to learn to eat based on what their bodies’ need.

Based around this book and program:

Intuitive Eating

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Laurie’s Stories Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Laurie’s Stories Story: An Experience
An Experience by: Thomas Hardy
Laurie’s Stories Reader: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

Sounds Used in Laurie’s Stories

  • Music Theme
    http://www.freesound.org/people/ShadyDave/sounds/262259/
  • Applause
    http://www.freesound.org/people/bulbastre/sounds/132154/
  • British Welcome
    http://www.freesound.org/people/Intimidated/sounds/61571/
  • Pages Turning
    http://www.freesound.org/people/zzzemon/sounds/176623/
  • Cello Loop
    http://www.freesound.org/people/Thirsk/sounds/121018/

The Dreamers by Josh Woodward is licensed under a Attribution License.
Based on a work at http://www.joshwoodward.com/

The Dreamers

by Josh Woodward

Lyrics

Here’s one for dreamers, who took that step
Here’s one for every time they jumped without a net

Here’s one for misfits, who broke the rules
Who feared the boredom more than scorn or ridicule

You’re scared to fly, in the endless sky
When the voices say that there’s no way you’ll ever make the grade

Let’s say you try, and you fall from high
When the sun has set, will you regret the fall?
Or the times you did nothing at all?

Here’s one for magic, that lives within
For seeing beauty in the commonest of things

Here’s one for passion, without restraint
To those who stumble to the ground and feel no shame

[Chorus]

Failure’s always is an option
But doubt’s the fatal toxin
That leaves your dreams to wither on the vine

Why is your brain refusing?
What are you scared of losing?
If you don’t try, you’ll fail every time

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