HOME AGAIN, HOME AGAIN, JIGGETY-JIG – We returned from Ventura yesterday and noticed a dirty haze hanging over our mountains as we approached. Now usually, we have pretty good air quality, as the winds from our mountains blow the gunk down onto poor Burbank, in the valley. In fact, it was dirty enough, I wondered if we had another wildfire smoldering in the hills?
But no, just more truck traffic, road construction, and a still day. Thus we speak about some of the downside of living in Southern California.
Speaking of downside, I was so hopeful in Ventura that my mood was snapping to the up side of the wheel, and it is. But, as would be usual for anyone, depressed or not, coming back to routine and chores and ‘What shall we cook for dinner?’ after blue skies, waves and service brings the emotional plane down to a lower altitude.
This morning I’m awake again after not enough hours of sleep. What is it? Maybe the mental list of what’s to come playing like a broken record? My bed is very comfortable. Maybe, Tiger the Cat, snuck in to cuddle me awake, having missed me? I usually ban the poor creature for just that reason, but found him wedged between my side and the pillow this morning. But this sleepy alertness doesn’t feel like Tiger. It feels like my mood is slipping again down the slippery slope.
In fact, my affect felt so flat, I had to look up a list of emotions to help me pinpoint it:
Today I chose pensive. Not quite sad, kind of contemplative type of word. It fits.
Off to therapy and a walk around Descanso. I hope, besides inhaling the cheer of the flowers, to buy an old fashioned paper calendar. I’ve had it with the updates to my phone’s software that make it almost an act of God to figure out one’s schedule. It used to be so easy. Tap calendar and look. No more. Too many steps to see an entry, to many ways to inadvertently make screens BIG, or tiny or last month, or flown away by the many, ‘shortcuts’ built in for gestures and swipes that change so often I can’t be bothered to keep up with them.
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BB (Body Balance) number 7.5 Sleep: 5.5 hours undivided (woke up a bit too early). Tummy/Gut: balanced and playing nice. Not Hungry within one hour of waking, but could be because I woke up early. No hike this AM, so will wait. Energy: Moderate. Mood: Pensive.
BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.
If you are interested these are my measures.
- Sleep. Quality and Amount.
- Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
- Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
- What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
- A quick look at my mood.
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