SO HAPPY AND EXCITED – I feel I’ve turned an important corner with my depression and my life. So many BCs have sent in their bravery and their good wishes for show 100, I can’t help but know this show and blog make a difference. What I’m doing makes a difference. There is no denying it. Before, I would not let myself write such a thing, because I would feel like I was bragging, and the negative voice that harps on me would say, ‘Who am *I* to say ANYTHING I did was worthwhile. You are a fake, a fraud, a loser mascarading as a success.’
Today I say, ‘F you stupid voice! I am Laurie, not only the Laurie of Compulsive Overeating Diary, but the Laurie who is the STAR of my own life, and I shine bright as the sun as that Laurie. I excel at being that Laurie. I was BORN to be that Laurie.
And BCs I say the same for you! I have heard over and over again, that not only do BCs love to hear from me, they LOVE to hear from YOU! Everyone is excited to hear Fionna’s song, not only because Fionna is awesome as a song writer, but because they know the voices of the BCs will not be silenced by fear. The BCs are BRAVE in every sense of the word. The BCs know who they are, and that they are WORTH being heard.
This makes me cry with happiness. Nothing could make me one bit happier than to know that all over the world, people who felt alone and struggling with how they felt about themselves, are coming into their own radiance. They are learning to know and love themselves. And to have a small part in witnessing this miracle makes me humble and glad. I am glad I listened to that voice on the mountain inside myself. I’m glad I started talking about my issues, even when I felt pathetic. Because that moment is when I began to welcome the real me inside. When I stopped hating who I was and began to get to know who I was, and that was the start of every wondrous thing that’s happened this last year.
BIKE and EDITING – I’m off to ride up from the Rose Bowl and then lock myself in to start writing and editing the bits for Show 100. What a long and WONDERFUL show it’s going to be! Thanks everyone for participating, and I can’t wait for you to hear how it all turns out.
BTW, show 100 is NOT the end, it’s just the beginning of a new year, a new chapter and new adventures for us on Compulsive Overeating Diary.
How about you?
Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.
*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.
PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂
BB (Body Balance) number 9.5 Sleep: 9 hours divided. (great, first 5.5, ok last 4) Tummy/Gut: balanced, yay! Not hungry after 2 hour of waking, but I was hungry after voice acting class (I don’t eat before voice acting, so it’s a long stretch without food and so eat more at night). Ate after 3 hours to prep for bike ride. Energy: High. Mood: Joyful
BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.
If you are interested these are my measures.
- Sleep. Quality and Amount.
- Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
- Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
- What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
- A quick look at my mood.
The Bravery Coach
TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile: