Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 3, 2015

Status 3-03-15*

I know it’s been awhile since I posted one of these. Besides being away and having chores, as well as comments piling up, I’ve been in a bit of an emotional funk. Not really depression, but a lot of feelings to process and I’ve felt a need to kind of be quiet and let things slide. Just a bit tired. But I’m starting to come out from this and thinking about organizing a show before Mark and I leave for my birthday trip in a few days.

What’s new? Been enjoying my animation voice class with David, took a bonus narration class and ran into some of my peeps from the voice actors’ social group and had a good time. I can see from the experience that I have a long way to go, but it feels good to be on the path.

Today

Went hiking for fun the other day, no recording as I needed to get up and down before the big rain. Hence the tardy show is on my mind. Slowly going through the blog comments and emails. Have a few audio bits to review as well. Also, Mark and I want to get a bike ride in today. That will be good as the rain kept me indoors yesterday. SoCal is back to its sunny self, now to work on MY sunnier self.

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

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Body Balance


BB (Body Balance) number: 7.
Sleep: 7 hours divided.
Tummy/Gut: Gut more full.
Hungry: After 1 hour awake. Regular breakfast satisfied
Energy: Moderate.
Mood: Still a bit melancholy.

BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.

If you are interested these are my measures.

  1. Sleep. Quality and Amount.
  2. Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
  3. Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
  4. What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
  5. A quick look at my mood.

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10 thoughts on “3-03-15

  1. Sue

    I often feel the need to be quiet or withdraw when I am processing lots of things and your trip will have provided lots of things to mull over. I hope that your planned trip away for your birthday helps increase the feel-good factor. Big hugs.

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    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Sue, you have in all of this ‘time away’ for me been an absolute beacon of understanding. Thank you SO much. You totally have demonstrated an empathy and understanding of my emotional situation. I have needed to step back to process on my own for a bit. And THEN I let my perceived “tardiness” in answering comments and getting a show out overwhelm me with guilt and push me into some avoidance behavior – though not chips, I’m glad to say. Even so, I can see I need to learn more balance in life as well as in food. Thanks so much for your support and for taking the time to come comment – not only for me, but to those who were posting in my absence. xoxoxoxoxox

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  2. Suz (Suzanne)

    I’ve been feeling a lot like withdrawing this week, too.
    My fatigue and headaches have returned, and I would love to hunker down at home and just be in the quiet, or with some music, and sort through old things and old feelings.
    I think playing some piano or cooking something warm and delicious and nutritious would be a good thing for me. I’m thinking a bean soup.
    Hope you are finding ways to nourish and restore your spirit.

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    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Hugs Miss Suz πŸ™‚ I’m starting to feel better. I must have REALLY been emotionally tired. Thanks so much for your good wishes and understanding. You know what REALLY helped me? When you sent your doodles. It made me feel the joy of our connection. It recharged some of my inner spark. I so enjoyed your drawings and I enjoyed thinking of you making them. Since I’ve been away, and resting, and tardy with my show (in my own mind), everything I LOVE about the show has built up in my mind into a great big chore I need to do. Crazy no? But just like letting my house get cluttered enough that it is a big job to tackle, catching up with the BCs and figuring out what I want to say (and finding time to record it) has just seemed so overwhelming. I now realize, that all it needs is one step at a time, and I can record a show all about not knowing what to record! Hahaha, Anyway, thanks my friend for hanging in there and I’m proud of you for communicating when you feel like isolating. But more than that, I think it is wonderful that you can identify the need to pull back for some self-care too. I think that is an important distinction. If we DON’T take time for ourselves when we need it, we do get burned out and I think that leads to longer isolation that is hard to break – rather like a binge when we are starving. I’m trying now to work out how to get more in balance in all of my life, so the show is again my joy and not a burden. I am encouraged that I’m making progress there. Sending you love and hugs today xoxoxoxoxoxox

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      1. Suz (Suzanne)

        Sending you love and hugs back. I am so delighted that my little doodle page brightened things up a bit! And…there is a surprise coming for you in the mail! I mailed it March 3 so I’m hoping it will reach you by Saturday before you leave for your birthday.
        And I know EXACTLY what you mean by something you love becoming a chore. I get so overwhelmed with the EVERYTHING I forget to look at things a little at a time sometimes. I am also trying to tackle things a little at a time as far as my heap of clutter. I just can’t think of it as a whole or I will shut down.
        Your show is a joy to us, and I know I certainly don’t want you to feel burdened.
        When I read how things were going I wanted to send you a relaxing piano song, too. I might still do that if I have time tonight. Mistakes and all! πŸ™‚
        Maybe just do a “bonus” show off the cuff with no notes if you need to. You know we love those just as much, too! I love it when you just talk to us. I love to be taken along on your walks. I don’t expect perfection or polish, just the brave honesty and humanity that makes me feel connected to you. You’ve been processing and thinking a lot after your trip. Maybe you need more “inside” time, or maybe you need a verbal catharsis. I don’t know.
        I know it’s too easy to slip into building up high expectations for yourself. It’s a perfectionistic trap that stops us in our tracks. Keep on going, and doing what you need to do, not what you think we’re expecting you to do. If it feels good to podcast, then podcast. πŸ™‚ We’re rooting for Laurie to do what’s best for Laurie. πŸ™‚

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        1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

          LOVED the relaxing piano songs! I’m going to collect all of your work and make a Suzanne Album in iTunes to put on my iPod for hiking purposes. So keep them coming! xoxoxoxoxox

          PS, I DID get the show out, and it was actually fun. I got a hike in yesterday that I didn’t expect, due to the dang crows the day before, and the mountain REALLY opened me up to share some emotions that I might not have shared in a public park. So all’s well that ends well. Also, please don’t stress if your birthday surprise doesn’t arrive today. I WILL be celebrating with Mark on my birthday, and I will look forward to seeing what you sent on my return. If it DOES arrive, I’ll try to let you know, but again, if I don’t please don’t worry. That just means I am busy getting ready for my trip xoxoxoxoxox

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