I’m tired this morning. Another night of interrupted sleep and tossing. My mind is restless and I’m feeling the tug of depression again. What to do? Look outside and see what’s there. Inside is a mess.

*Ed. note – This caption was written on Mar. 16, 2014, ergo, I have been the same size/weight for almost 10 months with no dieting, counting, excess exercising etc. I have also gone from bingeing daily to bingeing 2x, 6 months apart, in the same time period. For full disclosure and to stand in my ...

Mark snaps this pic of me relaxing with our furry family. Gracie, the tabby on the perch is the mama of Tiger, the ginger cat perching on my tummy. How does this peaceful scene contribute to feeling fat? Feeling Fat is my River of Death Actually, I love the photo above that Mark took of me and ...

It’s a Christmas Eve Miracle! I only ate half of this chocolate, and I even like it. It was just that one bite was enough. A Different Kind of Christmas This my dears, is the true Christmas story of Laurie, Mark, and the impact of Intuititve Eating. Mark and I made a different kind of ...

Mark and I had the BEST sunset dinner last night. It was So delicious and leisurely and the opposite of compulsive. I’ve Been Feeling Fat Lately Sigh, the bane of any self-respecting, body-accepting, intuitive-eating, adventurer is the common gotcha bug that can bite at ANY TIME aka as ‘FEELING FAT’. What the hell IS feeling ...

I’m enjoying coffee on the balcony of the hotel on our latest jaunt to the ‘Shore’ – hence my punny temptation for the title of this piece. But I am so struck, once again, at how tired, drawn, and aged I look compared to other selfies taken not that long ago. I’m trying hard to ...

Today I ponder my latest adventures in life and in eating and think about, ‘What do I REALLY want?’ The selfie above captures this morning’s unexpected moment of reflection as I awoke super early, grabbed a coffee and a banana and found a cozy pondering spot at the hotel’s fire pit. Again at a hotel? Weren’t ...

Mark and I have fun walking the path we usually ride. We see the wind, waves and sand close up. Later on, we’ll walk the pier and watch the sunset. Plans don’t always work out as you expect You know how much I love plans and how much I love plans to GO AS EXPECTED! Well all ...

I reflect back on the path this Thanksgiving – pretty good metaphor, eh? I’m Thankful for… My hubby Mark. Sometimes I think we COULD NOT be more opposite in temperament, timing, wishes, life goals. But somehow we’ve made it work for more than 20 years together. I love you, Honey. Sometimes what you think you want isn’t ...

I accidentally left our back door open and Tiger snuck out. With cars, coyotes, owls, dogs and high fences that require balance our little tailless cat doesn’t have, it puts everything in perspective for me. I would gladly weigh 300 pounds again forever, if it brought him home safe. Right now, we’ve done all we can ...

Already antsy and anxious from relentless winds smashing against my windows, I ponder if I want to distract myself on the computer, or if the deafening silence there will drive me batty. Wind Mark and I had decided to ride the river today. Yay! I’ve been not exercising since we got back from our mini-break to Ventura ...

I feel fantastic wearing the outfit I bought on my Solo Intuitive Adventure Day. My body is the same as yesterday, but it makes a difference what you wear and how it fits. I feel at peace with my body today. Can a MUSICAL change your life? YES! Yesterday experiencing the message of Kinky Boots, the musical, ...

When I wake up, the first thing I do these days is snuggle with Tiger. His warm cuddly purring makes me feel much better about my life than any cold and mechanical scale number ever did. Brave Companions, today my guest post about giving up the scale came out on Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin’s award winning ...

I’m pondering how my mirror image makes me feel. How much is real and how much comes from our own self-image? Comments on Day 85 from Stéfanie and Cheryl really make think about my self-image Stéfanie writes … I just had an ah ha moment. I never thought that some people could prefer not getting ANY kind ...

My Solo Intuitive Adventure Day begins with an early AM hike, JUST FOR FUN! What do you do when your hubby asks you to leave the house for 24 hours… Ha! Got you there with THAT headline huh? Mark needed to complete a plumbing project at our home that required him to turn off our water supply ...

Alen and I really enjoy talking together, and it shows in his new episode! Great news BCs since I am so slammed this weekend and am delayed in getting my own next episode out, Alen just posted one we did together! About month or so ago, I walked around the park once again talking with Alen Standish ...

Cancelled: Last Group was Oct 21, 2014 What’s Under Your Food? An emotional eating exploration & support group YMCA OF THE FOOTHILLS 1930 Foothill Blvd, La Cañada Flintridge, CA 91011 At the Y, we believe being healthy means more than simply being physically active. It’s about maintaining a balanced spirit, mind and body. This support group at the Y is ...

My technical difficulties should be resolved. All of the show files are back online and I should finish testing them all today. I will go record a bonus episode in the park so I can test publishing a new one. Fingers crossed that this is the end of the trouble! I’m in contact with my Media ...

I decide trying on pants is the lesser of two evils today EARLY! Woke up 4am, tossing and turning. Weird anxiety dreams of weight piling on. Panic! Thought about lugging ladder to the garage to find my old nemesis, the scale, for: Reassurance? Punishment for eating intuitively instead of on a calorie or food restriction diet of ...

BALANCE …is my word today. Body Balance, Life Balance, Food Balance. One of the BCs asked me: “What the heck do you MEAN by tummy/gut balance?” ALERT answer may be TMI, so feel free to scroll past. Basically, when I overeat, or am more inactive than usual, yesterday’s meal sits below the belly button in ...