Ep 0097 – Learning to Trust on the Mountains AND in the Valleys

Laurie in her straw hat taken from overhead pointing out a wooden bench
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Ok, I’m probably past the point of taking too many selfies now! I’m trying to get a unique view of the Next to Top Zen place bench and not be so same old, some old.

Podcast Recap

I’m totally surprised when distrust bubbles up as what to let go of today. I ponder the roots of why I don’t trust myself or others and how I might let down that wall. I highlight the blog of BC and Instagram buddy, Sarah Nicole Hupp, then I tell tales from Facebook welcoming new BC Mary, finding out what Suz is up to and I answer a serious question about the diagnosis of compulsive eating. Thank you to my latest generous Coffee Klatcher and my first Canadian Amazon shopper. A new country floods the blog with visits, our first BC from Israel, Stacey comments, and Stéfanie from Quebec reveals her thoughts about our holiday show. I discuss what’s under my latest serious tangle with the Robot aliens and the support I received from Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin on her secret FB group and BCs Sue from the UK, Dawny, Cheryl, and Fionna on my own blog post.Finally Dawny shares great news and gives us a unique way to approach the new year.
Close up of wild buckwheat fronds against blue sky and wispy clouds

Love how the sweep of blue sky is highlighted from this close up of wild buckwheat – at least I THINK it is buckwheat.

Stacked rocks close up on the trail

Someone else has been placing prayer rocks along the trail. I’m encouraged by it. Good thing, this was a challenging day and climb.

Sunny blue day with foothills seen from the hiking trail

Beautiful winter view on the way down the mountain. I am lucky to enjoy such a vista.


My Instagram buddy, Sarah Nicole Hupp

Sarah Nicole Hupp on Instagram

Sarah Nicole’s blog, Freedom from the Noise

Sarah’s post about 7 steps to a healthier life

Support for my binge

My blog post about what was under my binge,Feeling Fat and Other Binge Triggers

Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin’s site, Win the Diet War

My guest blog post for Dr. Nina’s Make Peace with Food

Intuitive Eating Community.org the community for Intuitive Eaters

Sue from the UK’s supportive comment

Cheryl’s supportive comment

Fionna’s sympathetic comment

Dawny’s supportive comment

Jenny’s New Year wish

Tales from Facebook

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Mary’s post on the show’s Facebook page

Suz’s announcement on the FB page

Certificate you can fill out and print to celebrate listening to ALL of the COD episodes like Suzanne did

How to Send your audio for the Brave Companion Song or Foolish Fun or To tell your Story

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The Holiday Show

The Holiday episode on Day 95

Stacey from Israel’s comment

Stéfanie from Quebec’s holiday recap comment

Day 96 where Sue from the UK send audio about her lovely church service. Go here to support her for her bravery in letting us hear her voice.

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Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Resource of the day

Symptoms of Binge-Eating Disorder
on The Mayo Clinic web site Even though compulsive eating and binge-eating disorder are not the same thing, this is a handy list to check out if you think you may have a problem that would benefit from professional support.
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4 thoughts on “Ep 0097 – Learning to Trust on the Mountains AND in the Valleys

  1. Dawny

    Another marvelous episode. I love your ponderings and working thru.

    I’m headed to check out the new featured blog. Sounds GREAT thanks for sharing that with us.

    I too love dr Nina. I listen to her on stitcher. I wasn’t aware of the ‘group’ tho. Hmmmm lol lol

    Proud of you laurie for working thru the things calling the robot aliens.

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Thanks Dawny! Off now to ride the Rose bowl solo since Mark is tired today. Then I’ll practice singing and my voice acting bits. I am more than my weight. I need to keep THAT in my mind. And I need to work on letting go of others who need/want/find peace with a different path. People pleasing me wants EVERYBODY to Love EVERYTHING I do. Not possible. What really is shining through to me is that I need to become tougher at being me at my core. Let the world be what the world wants to be. It’s a tough one. Enjoy Sarah’s blog, I think you will really like it. Thanks too for putting up with my rants and rolls. xoxoxoxox

  2. Stéfanie

    Hi to new bc’s from ALL over the WORLD!

    The thing that really touched me in your podcast was when you talked about rational/irrational emotions. It’s so true that there are layers and layers under emotions and that we are carrying inconscious weight from our past. You phrased all of this so well.

    It makes me realize that we sometimes feel guilty for feeling a certain way as we know that it’s not necessarily true or fact-based (in an objective manner). But then again, what’s even more important than it’s objective truthness is the fact that indicates that something IS there, under it all, even if it’s a residual from our past. It’s worth to listen gently and try to understand it instead of shaming ourselves for being overly emotional, overthinking or dramatic.

    I liked listening to you when you explained all of this distrust feeling as maybe being rational, maybe not – You’ve explained all of this with so much self-love, self-compassion, instead of blaming yourself for feeling this way. This is how we need to do things, right? Thank you for that. xx

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      You have truly gotten to the core of what I was struggling with I think.

      It makes me realize that we sometimes feel guilty for feeling a certain way as we know that it’s not necessarily true or fact-based (in an objective manner). But then again, what’s even more important than it’s objective truthness is the fact that indicates that something IS there, under it all, even if it’s a residual from our past.

      Part of my people pleasing is wanting to be a ‘good girl’ and smile and feel ‘sugar and spice and everything nice’ (That is part of an English fairy tale saying about what girls are made of vs. boys). And when I have negative emotions bubbling up like anger, sadness, hurt, rage … I want to cover them up, hide them away, paste on my happy mask. If there is no ‘good logical reason’ then these feelings are even more shameful for me. I was taught this. Even with a good reason, I am supposed to swallow them and know that ‘others have it worse, after all’ etc. I have a lifelong volcano inside. I am afraid of it. But with therapy I am letting these out. It is hard. Very hard for me. But it does release the happy feelings too. I can truly feel happy, proud, excited, joyful in a depth that I never really knew before either. Each time I face a food challenge it is an opportunity to dig a little deeper. I know I won’t always choose the high road, in food or otherwise, but I’m choosing it more often. Progress, not perfection as Alen says. Hugs


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