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Ep 0097 – Learning to Trust on the Mountains AND in the Valleys

Laurie in her straw hat taken from overhead pointing out a wooden bench
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Ok, I’m probably past the point of taking too many selfies now! I’m trying to get a unique view of the Next to Top Zen place bench and not be so same old, some old.

Podcast Recap

I’m totally surprised when distrust bubbles up as what to let go of today. I ponder the roots of why I don’t trust myself or others and how I might let down that wall. I highlight the blog of BC and Instagram buddy, Sarah Nicole Hupp, then I tell tales from Facebook welcoming new BC Mary, finding out what Suz is up to and I answer a serious question about the diagnosis of compulsive eating. Thank you to my latest generous Coffee Klatcher and my first Canadian Amazon shopper. A new country floods the blog with visits, our first BC from Israel, Stacey comments, and Stéfanie from Quebec reveals her thoughts about our holiday show. I discuss what’s under my latest serious tangle with the Robot aliens and the support I received from Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin on her secret FB group and BCs Sue from the UK, Dawny, Cheryl, and Fionna on my own blog post.Finally Dawny shares great news and gives us a unique way to approach the new year.
Close up of wild buckwheat fronds against blue sky and wispy clouds

Love how the sweep of blue sky is highlighted from this close up of wild buckwheat – at least I THINK it is buckwheat.

Stacked rocks close up on the trail

Someone else has been placing prayer rocks along the trail. I’m encouraged by it. Good thing, this was a challenging day and climb.

Sunny blue day with foothills seen from the hiking trail

Beautiful winter view on the way down the mountain. I am lucky to enjoy such a vista.

Mentioned

My Instagram buddy, Sarah Nicole Hupp

Sarah Nicole Hupp on Instagram

Sarah Nicole’s blog, Freedom from the Noise

Sarah’s post about 7 steps to a healthier life

Support for my binge

My blog post about what was under my binge,Feeling Fat and Other Binge Triggers

Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin’s site, Win the Diet War

My guest blog post for Dr. Nina’s Make Peace with Food

Intuitive Eating Community.org the community for Intuitive Eaters

Sue from the UK’s supportive comment

Cheryl’s supportive comment

Fionna’s sympathetic comment

Dawny’s supportive comment

Jenny’s New Year wish

Tales from Facebook

Compulsive Overeating Diary’s Facebook page – bookmark it and check out my status reports, my body balance numbers, comments from BCs, links and resources by BCs and more fun stuff you may NEVER see if you just wait for your news feed to float by. Also, you don’t have to have a FB account to see the show page. Go ahead, take a risk, and come visit.

Mary’s post on the show’s Facebook page

Suz’s announcement on the FB page

Certificate you can fill out and print to celebrate listening to ALL of the COD episodes like Suzanne did

How to Send your audio for the Brave Companion Song or Foolish Fun or To tell your Story

    Note: For the Brave Companion Song

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The Holiday Show

The Holiday episode on Day 95

Stacey from Israel’s comment

Stéfanie from Quebec’s holiday recap comment

Day 96 where Sue from the UK send audio about her lovely church service. Go here to support her for her bravery in letting us hear her voice.

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Participate in our feature called “Foolish Fun“. Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on http://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
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Intuitive Eating Book on Amazon – please use the links below

Intuitive Eating

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My Second Twitter Account JUST for bravery sayings @TheBraveryCoach

Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

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Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

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Ep 0087 – Maybe Deciding not to be Indecisive – Happy 40 Weeks of COD

Laurie with water bottle
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Oh it was hot hiking! I love my cool, shady, next to top Zen place and my cool, delicious H2o

Podcast Recap

Celebrate our 40 week milestone! Stories, announcements, surprises, stats and other fun. Freaked out from current Robot Alien events, I delve into the reasons and decide to let go of indecision. Learning to trust myself to know my own best path and then to stay the course is key to both my comfort and my progress. Welcome to new brave companion, Kerry, and thanks to Cheryl and Dawny for commenting on my guest blog post on Dr. Nina’s blog, Make Peace with Food. I ponder communication and support with help from comments from Sue. Dawny calls the bravery hotline and puts herself deservedly on the bravery report for opening up and honestly seeking support from the BCs. Patt also steps up right away to support Dawny. I put myself into Foolish Fun mode by reading a short story I wrote in my writing group about an alien named Griffin who fell to Earth after disobeying his father. I hope other writers may follow suit. BC Rachel supports Amy from WI who called the bravery hotline on Day 65, and asks us all for our thoughts about procrastination. I reveal why I’m now following myself on twitter and why I love Instagram.
Man hiking ahead on the trail

A cool lesson I learned on the hot trail yesterday. Sometimes it’s our turn to lead, sometimes to follow.

Mentioned

The Intuitive Eating Community website

One of my last two blog posts, Weighing My Life Without a Scale

The other of my last two blog posts, Trusting the Mirror, Photos or Your Heart?

The episode on Day 86 where I share my frustrating day that I talk about with Sue

Sue and my comment conversation on FB

Sue and my comment conversation on Day 86

The episode where I asked you to refrain from giving me unasked for food and exercise advice on Day 71

My guest blog post about giving up the scale on Dr. Nina’s blog, Make Peace with Food

Dr. Nina Savelle Rocklin’s blog, Make Peace with Food

Dr. Nina’s podcast and website, Win the Diet War

Alen’s show and blog, Progress, Not Perfection

My first interview with Alen on Progress, Not Perfection on episode 42

My second interview with Alen on Progress, Not Perfection on episode 49

Dawny’s Bravery Report page debut. Brava Dawny!

Patt’s supportive comment to Dawny

Find your OWN piece of bravery to post on our actual Bravery Report page.

Rachel’s supportive comment for Amy from WI and questions for us BCs about procrastination on Day 64

Episode on Day 65 where Amy from WI called the bravery hotline about the cookie incident

Want to have Fun Being Foolish too?

Participate in our new feature called “Foolish Fun“. Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on http://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
And tell us a joke, riddle, a silly story, limerick, sing a song, play a kazoo, ANYTHING but talk about compulsive eating. This is the feature where messing up is just part of the act! No names required and Silly Aliases are AOK! Need ideas? See Day 54’s Resource of the Day for my page of ToonaCat Jokes
Intuitive Eating Book on Amazon – please use the links below

Intuitive Eating

The Story Cubes we use at Writing Group – On Amazon

Rory’s Story Cube Complete Set – Original – Actions – Voyages

Rory’s Story Cubes is a pocket-sized creative story generator, providing hours of imaginative play for all ages. With Rory’s Story Cubes, anyone can become a great storyteller and there are no wrong answers. Simply roll the cubes and let the pictures spark your imagination!

Ways to support the show financially

Catch up with Laurie

My Spreaker page. Please follow me there if you are on Spreaker.

My Instagram page at LaurieDreamWeaver

FaceBook Page if you want to sign up for our email list by clicking Tiger the Cat’s Sign-up button

My Second Twitter Account JUST for bravery sayings @TheBraveryCoach

Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Foolish Fun Content: Me, Myself and I

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
    http://www.freesound.org/people/plingativator/sounds/188873/
  • Background Tune/Beat
    http://www.freesound.org/people/siakitty/sounds/38478/
  • Girl’s Laughter
    http://www.freesound.org/people/choplin/sounds/109759/
  • Phone Ring
    http://www.freesound.org/people/winsx87/sounds/152028/

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Weighing My Life Without a Scale

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When I wake up, the first thing I do these days is snuggle with Tiger. His warm cuddly purring makes me feel much better about my life than any cold and mechanical scale number ever did.

A Visit from Old Frenemies

Yesterday, quite frankly, I was feeling discouraged. As I described during a recent episode on my podcast, I had fallen lately into the arms of my old frenemies, the Robot Aliens. For those new to this blog or who haven’t listened from the very beginning to all of the episodes of the podcast, Robot Aliens, are what I call the automatic binge behavior that takes me away from subconscious uncomfortable feelings. Robot Aliens are the distractors and protectors from conscious discomfort. I say,”Robot Aliens beamed into my body, thrust their robot arms into my sleeves and hammered those chips right down my gullet”.

Alien Robots are attacking me with bags of chips

My fun graphic of the alien robots for that I posted on Facebook.


This Robot Alien attack was disconcerting, because it has been literally, several months, maybe 6 or 7 months, since they have been around. Through journaling, telling “all” on my show, working in therapy and generally feeling good about my life, food has not been too much on my mind. My feelings have been apparent and present and for good, or for ill, I’ve been dealing with them.

Kicking Robot Alien Butt


One of my first instincts was to haul out the scale from the garage, step on it, notice the number and “Take my medicine”. After all, that would have been my reaction in the past. That looming and awful number would be enough to make me control those damned Robot Aliens with my awesomely powerful super-juiced-up renewed commitment to diet and exercise.

All it would take is one teensy step and I’d once again kick their Robot Alien Keisters and I’d get back into my skinny jeans and I would fit into chairs and I would feel better about myself and my life would be perfect…

:::Sigh:::

I knew that was a lie. I knew I could go back on a diet/exercise plan, count carbs, calories, points, macro/micro nutrients, remove grain, remove dairy, add supplements, add super foods, join a gym, join a diet program, be a body builder, track my miles, my steps, my cadence, my pushups, my burpees, measure my strength, my distance, my shrinking girth, my growing self-worth…

I have done this all before. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over.

I have been thin. I have been a body builder. I have been on many programs for months and years. I’ve been a vegetarian, I’ve been low-carb, I’ve been a clean eater, I’ve added flax, omega 6 oil, vitamins, eaten 6 times per day, 3 times per day, had a sensible dinner, had a sensible snack, had baggies of veggies in my purse for parties, had dressing on the side, no bread, no butter, no wine, no dessert, added fruit, removed fruit, added whole grain, removed grain, ate low-fat cottage cheese, shunned brie, boiled up leeks and drank green tea.

And in the end, eventually, I still returned to being me.

Crying in the Wildnerness

Being me, used to be the worse curse in my book, for all of the wrong-headed reasons we’ve discussed many times on my show.

But now, am I REALLY so bad that I need to give up my intuitive progress?

I took myself on a hike to ponder.

Purple light breaking over the mountains and a yellow meadow

This was one of the amazing views on my hike.

I didn’t hurry up or down the mountain. I took photos and posted them to Instagram and/or Facebook when my phone would work. I listened to Alen Standish’s podcast, Progress, Not Perfection for inspiration. I listened to Episode 45 where Alen interviews Dr. Stan Beecham, a sports psychologist who has a very different take on success. It wowed me. Something that struck me was his pyramid of what we want/do/be. We begin with things. For example: I want a fit body. Then we move on to activities. I want to hike and bike. Then the highest level is how we wish to be as we experience life.

How do I wish to BE? Hmmmm…

I wish to be kind, filled with purpose, motivating, happy, authentic, fearless and content.

Weighing In


Stones stacked on a fence post

I built this stack of prayer rocks on purpose out of stones that were hard to balance. Together they fit and were strong. I did this to send my gratitude to all of you for supporting me and each other.

A diet won’t help me be those things. My chosen path of intuitive eating, telling you all my truth with courage and humility, accepting myself as I am and not waiting for a better number or size, for taking the good with the bad and processing the bumps of life with as much humor as I can… This is me. And after thinking it through, I’m very happy with that.

The scale can remain weighing cobwebs in the garage.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

PS, Brave Companions, what I wrote was how I feel about my path. Your path needs to be right for you and how you feel. Please don’t think I judge you or feel you must do as I do. I love you all just as you are and respect you for choosing your own way.

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My Solo Intuitive Adventure Day

Laurie at the trailhead
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My Solo Intuitive Adventure Day begins with an early AM hike, JUST FOR FUN!

What do you do when your hubby asks you to leave the house for 24 hours…


Ha! Got you there with THAT headline huh? Mark needed to complete a plumbing project at our home that required him to turn off our water supply for as long as it needed. Mark, knowing my fussy and immediate bladder needs, requested me to find a way to stay away and let him plumb safely sans wifely bitching.

So…..

Solo Intuitive Adventure Day Was Born!

It has been many, many years, since I have spent 24 hours all by my lonesome doing EXACTLY whatever I wanted to do, whenever I wanted to do it. In fact, it has been SO long, I had a bit of a trouble thinking UP all of the wonderful things I wanted to do. So Like all good things, I started with an early morning hike to my mountain. I went just for fun and not for recording, thinking, praying, or anything other than watching birds, marveling at lizards, saying howdy to fellow hikers and petting the dogs whom I knew on the trail. Pace was NOT exercise quality – even though any hiking is exercise.

Tree against the sunrise

Early morning – dawn breaks as I begin my Adventure Trek

Hike accomplished, shower had, what should I do next?

Let’s hit the movies!


I hopped in my red convertible (which I LOVE yet seldom drive now that I am retired), took the top down, slapped on my sunscreen and hat, blasted Beatles music all the way to Burbank and moseyed to the theater to pick a non-Mark-favorite film. Hmm, Girlie romance? Not in the mood. Action? Nope, too much thinking. Schmaltzy Bill Murray Pic? Perfect. Heart-warming with sarcastic wit.

Decided to eat WHATEVER I WANTED. Discovered, not in the mood for popcorn, so enjoyed film and about a $30.00 savings by avoiding the concession stand.

Laurie in front of a Hitchcock poster

Me and Hitch at the movie theater after I saw St. Vincent starring Bill Murray.

Hmmm What next? Not time to check into hotel yet?

Shopping Heaven or Hell?

Well, I HAVE been looking pretty ratty of late, since I HATE clothes shopping. NOTHING, no matter what size I try, no matter HOW thin or fat I am has ever fit without a trip to the tailor. Shopping means armloads of clothing all different sizes and me having to strip, try, re-dress, take clothes back, find more sizes, rinse repeat, rinse repeat until I want to scream and go back to wearing Mark’s old T-shirts. Sigh. I totally was denied the girly girl shopping and make-up gene. BUT here I am next to a Macy’s with time to kill. What’s the harm? I totally crapshoot my size, took one, count ’em one, outfit in only two sizes a piece into the dressing room. Tried on my first guess.

Voilà

Laurie in the dressing room wearing slacks and printed top

Wow, I actually enjoyed clothes shopping for once! I do think this is a flattering photo. The slim fit slacks are 18W and the top is 0X (wtf?) What is a Zero X??? as opposed to 1X? Anyway, it fit and I love it. Comfy.

Ok, all dressed up and where to go? Hmmm picturing excellent red wine with dinner….what ELSE completes this intuitive delight?

I ADMIT to self I want chocolate!

Laurie accepts a piece of chocolate at the candy counter

Picking out the chocolate I really like for later. No appologies. I knew I was having a glass of red wine later with dinner, and I LOVE a dark chocolate with that. It was a planned savored moment.

Next stop, time to check in and have some lunch at the hotel. Red convertible roars again through the streets of Burbank, hair flying, sun shining and Beatles blasting… I probably should have a salad for lunch…

SCREW SALAD! I want some fries!

Food

Almost got a big burger until I realized I wanted the fries. So was hungry for chicken and veggie skewer with brown rice, ate about 12 fries and was happy. Did drink the entire beer though. Shopping is thirsty work!

After lunch, I felt WONDERFUL and empowered. I went to my room and discovered HGTV and the FOOD network were both available. Had a great rest of the day watching my fill of shows here. By dinner, I didn’t want to leave, was tired, not that hungry. Ordered room service for what I thought was a personal pizza, got a HUGE pizza for about 8 people. Luckily there’s a small fridge in this room and I had not used the plastic bag I’d brought for laundry. So one slice, one glass of wine and one delish chocolate later, jammies were on, Mark called and loved, and I was hitting the hay after a day that was pleasing to me, and only me.

And the rest of the story…

Bravery in action!

I wanted to go swimming….

Laurie in full length mirror in a one piece swimsuit

I put myself on the bravery report for showing you what I look like, cellulite and all, in my swim attire.


Early morning at the swimming pool

The beautiful pool I’m about to swim in solo. I aways swim early or late, both so it’s not as crowded, and because of my high risk of skin cancer.

Laurie in a surf shirt by the pool with a kindle

Right after my swim, I enjoy my hot coffee and reading my book club book by the pool. I’m wearing a surf shirt so I don’t have to put sunblock on my back solo.

Pretend Travel Blogger…

Now, dear brave companions, I’m living a lifelong dream and pretending to be a travel blogger, so I’m writing you this post from my desk at the Airport Marriot in Burbank. I’ve had a wonderful stay, as usual, and I highly recommend solo intuitive adventure days whenever you can manage it, plumbing or no, plumbing.

xoxoxoxox

PS, If you would have enjoyed seeing this adventure unfold in real time, follow me, LaurieDreamWeaver, on instagram. That’s where I post adventures as they happen. http://instagram.com/lauriedreamweaver/

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Therapy Zero Hour – Bravely Meeting Myself Head-on

Laurie by some prayer rocks at the top of the hiking trail
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I happily discover somebody else’s prayer rocks at my upper Zen place and so send positive thoughts and prayers out to that person. I’ve found that to be a good remedy for my nerves. Find somebody else to wish well – takes the spotlight off of all that might go wrong with me.

A lone tree in the vista of distance hills from a desert-like hiking trail.

Is it any wonder that I feel peaceful and away from my worries up here? This is about half-way to my upper Zen place/


Morning US West Coasties! Good Day or Evening to you other brave companions. I’m endlessly grateful that there are brave companions from all over the world! Who knew that our common eating issues AND compasion stretched so far to connect us? I don’t know about you, but it makes me feel much less alone to have all of you to speak to and to hear from.

Yesterday was a good day. I was nervous of meeting my new therapist. It’s kind of like a first date. But it turned out very positively and I can tell this will help me very much on my journey. To process some of the deep issues in my life with the aid of professional help, will help me to finally “let go” of some of the root causes of my food issues – and, more importantly, the issues that keep me from connecting as I would like with people in my life. I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer. It may happen, but dealing with life is my answer. And dealing with life won’t happen as long as the Robot Aliens have sway with me. So baby steps, dear companions.

I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer.

I’m thrilled too, that being so nervous yesterday AM, that I chose to go hiking instead of losing myself in eating. Hiking was my first thought. Even better that I chose to not record it, as I wanted to protect my back by not carrying my recorder, little book, apple, extra water etc. all of the accoutrements that are needed for my show at the Zen Place. This time, I just took myself. And that was appropriate on a day that was for once, without guilt, all about me.

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