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Ep 0079 – Expressing Yourself Without a False Self

Laurie seen from above on the hiking bench
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Having fun with the angles of my selfie. Here’s a view from as high as I can reach of me and my gear on the next to top Zen place bench.

Podcast Recap

How can we let go of our false selves and learn to express who we are? Welcome to new BC Rachel who recommends a new podcast for us to check out. Now available, a certificate of completion for Brave Companions who have listened or binge-listened, all the way through the episodes so far! I announce my upcoming live support group – details to come. Touching letters from two new brave companions on the bravery report, María from a Spanish speaking country and Amy from Ohio. Courtney, another new brave companion is on the bravery report a record three times in one day! Once for her bravery hotline call, once for her comment on day 4 and once for posting her story on Who are the Brave Companions? Dawny also calls the bravery hotline with an update about her vacation, how she’s doing with intuitive eating and what SHE’s bravely giving up today! Featured comments by Stéfanie from Quebec and Amy from Wisconsin. I also reveal my secret binge behavior these days. Courtney ends the show by making me LOL!

Laurie grinning

See, it IS all about the angles. I include this take because it’s as thin as my legs have looked without me photoshopping them!


Hikers on the trail

The trail is popular on this cool Sunday morning.

Mentioned

New BC Rachel’s introductory comment on Day 6

Win the Diet War with Dr. Nina – the podcast Rachel mentions in her comment.

Courtney’s comment on Day 4

Courtney’s story on Who are the Brave Companions?

Post YOUR story on the Who are the Brave Companions? page

Bravery Tips on Episode 78

Courtney’s funny bravery comment on Day 78

Stéfanie’s list on Day 76

Stéfanie’s response on Day 77

Amy from Wisconsin’s supportive comment on Day 77

Amy from Wisconsin’s bravery hotline call can be found on Day 65

Survivor TV website

Ways to support the show financially

Want to have Fun Being Foolish too?

Participate in our new feature called “Foolish Fun“. Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on https://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
And tell us a joke, riddle, a silly story, limerick, sing a song, play a kazoo, ANYTHING but talk about compulsive eating. This is the feature where messing up is just part of the act! No names required and Silly Aliases are AOK! Need ideas? See Day 54’s Resource of the Day for my page of ToonaCat Jokes

Catch up with Laurie

My Spreaker page. Please follow me there if you are on Spreaker.

My Instagram page at LaurieDreamWeaver

FaceBook Page if you want to sign up for our email list by clicking Tiger the Cat’s Sign-up button

Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Resource of the day

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Ep 0078 – Bonus – Using Bravery in Self-Talk to Build Confidence

Laurie in a hat
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Hooray! I’m ready to walk around the park and do a bonus episode. Feeling great and ready to roll!

Podcast Recap

I rush down to the park to squeeze in a bonus walk and talk before we leave for a memorial service. I ponder how to stop letting what others say or think about me, or what I THINK they think of me, determine my mood. Josh’s album, The Simple Life, which contains my theme song, I’m Letting Go, is the resource of the day. Quick shout-outs to new brave companions, Courtney and Amy from Ohio, who will be featured next episode. I explore how dieting really IS the flip side of my binge eating disorder. I appreciate the new things and relationships in my life now that I have space in place of food obsession. I reveal my inner body fears and how I overcome them.
Laurie in bike shorts

I strut my bravery in my bike shorts. Yay! Big GRrrls DO ride bikes!

Mentioned

Last episode with Mark’s report

Ways to support the show financially

Want to have Fun Being Foolish too?

Participate in our new feature called “Foolish Fun“. Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on https://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
And tell us a joke, riddle, a silly story, limerick, sing a song, play a kazoo, ANYTHING but talk about compulsive eating. This is the feature where messing up is just part of the act! No names required and Silly Aliases are AOK! Need ideas? See Day 54’s Resource of the Day for my page of ToonaCat Jokes

Catch up with Laurie

My Spreaker page. Please follow me there if you are on Spreaker.

My Instagram page at LaurieDreamWeaver

FaceBook Page if you want to sign up for our email list by clicking Tiger the Cat’s Sign-up button

Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Resource of the day

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Panic and Fear of Weight Gain – Slow Down and Think It Through Laurie

Laurie in the mirror wearing jeans and sleeveless top.
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I decide trying on pants is the lesser of two evils today

EARLY! Woke up 4am, tossing and turning. Weird anxiety dreams of weight piling on. Panic! Thought about lugging ladder to the garage to find my old nemesis, the scale, for:

  • Reassurance?
  • Punishment for eating intuitively instead of on a calorie or food restriction diet of some kind?
  • a Miracle? You know, where you eat a bunch but your weight goes down – MAYBE that could happen – sigh

But I decided my old nemesis would not help and wondered why I’m feeling this way?

Pondered and realized I feel puffy. Puffiness and I are old friends. It usually means:

  1. Could be weight gain (yikes, my challenge is that I need to be ok with this one right now in my journey to learn to eat without bingeing)
  2. TOO MUCH SALT – I’m a big water retainer, always have been, despite my excellent blood pressure.
  3. Heat – I react to heat by retaining water – no doubt because of the extra sweating.
  4. Injury – the body can become puffy while healing trauma areas.

So let’s think about these, and rank the possibilities

  1. Before I gave up the scale I weighed the same for over 2 months. Have I changed my eating significantly since then? No. Have I changed my exercise? Yes. Much less since bike crash 1 week ago.
  2. Eating Salty things lately? Yes, had Mexican dinner with Mark on Monday.
  3. Weather lately? Hot as bejesus!
  4. Injury? Yes, Chest and knee still painfully bruised and feeling tender.
    Post where I tell about the accident
    Post where if you CHOOSE you can view the damage to my poor body parts

I think my puffiness is firstly caused by the dinner, then the heat and injury combined with lesser amount of exercise (this also increases my stress hormones).

Next step, how can I know if I AM actually putting on fat without weighing. (Again, I’m not supposed to care right now, but I can’t help myself).

I usually wear the size 20W jeans I bought at the start of doing this show after I gained the 23 extra pounds. They fit comfortably, and a bit loosely. Even these have felt more snug in the tummy. So I face my fear and drag out my 18W jeans. They had fit and zipped a few months ago, but not as comfy as my 20W. I figured if they don’t zip, I’ll know I’m up a bit in weight. (Even though I’m not supposed to care about that – my controlling mind WANTS TO KNOW)

Voila! They fit. They zip. I can sit in them. In fact I’m writing this post RIGHT NOW wearing them and have been sitting for awhile.

So of course I feel better. But the real question is the anxiety I felt. Part of my journey is letting go of self-judgement in the critical sense. Of allowing my body to dictate its hunger and fullness. Allowing the diet rebound to happen if need be on the way to balance.

This is a true BRAVERY REPORT shot. I dare to look AND snap the photo of myself from the back. The hips and top of thighs are my most feared and in the past, hated area of my body. For me to look objectively and not spew self-hatred and damaging talk is very difficult.  But I am a true Rubenesque body type of woman.

This is a true BRAVERY REPORT shot. I dare to look AND snap the photo of myself from the back. The hips and top of thighs are my most feared and in the past, hated area of my body. For me to look objectively and not spew self-hatrid and damaging talk is very difficult. But I am a true Rubenesque body type of woman.


Rubens' Venus at a Mirror

Rubens’ Venus at a Mirror

Am I TRULY at peace with my shape yet? No. I still struggle, but I can see the resemblence to the figure Sir Peter Paul Rubens loved to paint. Who am I to argue with art?

I am form and curves and cuddly lush love wrapped in skin and bones, but of these, the only thing that doesn’t change with time and chance is the love. No scale can measure that. – Laurie, July 30, 2014

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Ep 0001 – Compulsive Overeating Star-date…Forever

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This is me setting out on a grand experiment. Just me and my trusty Roland-05 podcast recorder off to record my compulsive overeating thoughts and feelings. Does anyone else care? Will they listen? Will *I* listen?

Podcast Recap

I launch a new podcast that’s an intimate look inside my lifelong battle with compulsive eating and binge eating disorder. I offer up two first steps that help me deal with compulsive eating when it roars back into my life.

Mentioned

Laurie’s Sparkpeople team for listeners of the podcast and for those dealing with compulsive overeating, binge eating, or emotional eating issues who’d like support. – Closed 10/22/14 due to lack of participation

Body for Life

Weight Watchers

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Resource of the day

Binge Eating Disorder Association
A great place to get more information and support. A community and a resource.
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