I drove down to the park for my first walk after all of my GI tests. It felt good to get outside, even though I was SHOCKED at how tired I was after.
I was hoping to release a bonus show but…
Medical concerns have taken precedence for me. Last week I had a full GI work-up at the hospital with biopsies to further investigate my digestive woes. (Thank you Angel Doc! xoxoxox). Angel Doc was ready to immediately wheel me into surgery if anything dire was discovered. Thankfully, nothing was dreadfully amiss and so I am recovering and getting back on my feet.
This whole process has been a learning experience as well as a pretty frightening one. It is very odd to not want to eat. It is very odd to have eating hurt. It is very odd to not get hungry AND it is very odd that given all of this, my weight remains pretty stable. For once I am grateful.
The scary time I lost weight
I may have told you this story on the show, but the only time I ever lost weight easily was about 12 or 13 years ago when I caught a persistent and terrible bacterial infection from body surfing in an area where there had been a recent sewage issue. The beach had been declared fit for swimming, but I was unlucky.
My body was in full on fight mode and the weight fell off of me. I was always hungry, and could not eat enough to stabilize. Luckily, it was during the time I was trying to lose weight at Weight Watchers, and so had many pounds to go. But even so, it was terrifying. The doctor at the time tried antibiotic after antibiotic and was just about to hospitalize me for an IV round, when he found one that worked. My God, I was so worn out from that. I was a washrag. I had zero energy. It was the most terrifying feeling in the world. And how many times had I wished for this?
Oh I wish the weight would just fall off!
Believe me, I don’t wish that anymore. Not ever. I DO wish if I have been exercising and eating moderately that my body might like to drop a little. But if my body is going to be stubborn, I’m glad it is keeping on weight rather than shedding it like water, like it did last time.
Last blog I shared the story of how I accidentally found out my weight.
A nice side benefit is that I now need to weigh daily as Angel Doc needs to know. And I don’t care. The number isn’t me anymore. It has zero impact on my self esteem. Isn’t that a miracle? I seem to have well and truly cut the cord. The scale is just a device. My weight just a number that tells us how my body is storing or not storing nutrients.
Anything besides medical stuff since last show?
Last weekend I went away for a weekend of self time and voice acting study. I had a wonderful time swimming, lazing and studying. I also continue to work on my voice acting and my demo as I can. Mark and I still go to writing group. I’ve had to slow down, but I’m not out. We just got back from our first 10 mile bike ride.
Special Thanks to Bailey from Alabama
Bailey is a new BC who LOVES to call the Bravery Hotline as she progresses through the episodes. It cheers me up SO much to know that the show is still doing good, and Bailey is a wonderful young lady. I’ll play you a bit of one of her calls once I feel up to hiking and talking again for a bonus show. xoxoxoxox Bailey!
Don’t be a stranger
Thanks BCs who have kept in contact one way or another for the good wishes, it REALLY, really, really REALLY means a lot to me. Thanks too to those of you who have continued support for the show by shopping through the Amazon links that also means the world to Mark and me. And please remember, you can STILL call, write and/or post comments. I may not get back to you as soon as I used to, but I will get back.