Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 18, 2015

Status 3-18-15*

Morning BC’s here are a few items that LOOM large in yesterday’s activity.

1.Happy Green Beer Day – er St. Paddy’s Day

Had a fun start to my morning Jib Jabbing Around with Stรฉfanie from Quebec, Dawny, Mark, and Tiger the Cat.

2.Book Club Reading

As usual, I put off starting my book club reading until the last minute. Why you ask? Aren’t the books any good? We have a mixed bag of results by our club choices, but that is our point – to experience reading adventures that we would not otherwise have. It is really cool to share reading and then to discuss it. Nope. My problem is that reading is VERY HARD for me since my bike accident and it is more of a chore than a pleasure. That being said, this book is AWESOME and I am enjoying it and kicking myself that I didn’t start it earlier so I could have ‘savored’ it instead of ‘binge reading’ in order to get it read by Saturday’s meeting. There must be some perfectionistic or procrastinator’s lesson there, but no time to ponder, got to get back to reading.

3. My ‘Go To’ Exercise Music

I still have an iPod stocked with my tunes and I listen on the way up the mountain or when I ride on a dedicated bike path removed from traffic. One of my best pleasures is posting to Sophie from Scotland on IG what I’m #RockingOutTo. Let me be clear, I am 99% old school and barely know the names of any bands or musicians post 1979 unless they’ve been in a relationship or scandal that puts their name into the news. BUT I do have an extensive collection of tunes based in my time capsule sensabilities. I tell Sophie and she tells me what SHE’s listening to. Cool! That way I know to listen to some new music and she gets the chance to explore my, to quote The Who, g..g..g..generation.

This is my favorite exercise companion music. One of my favorite bands, Styx, doing covers of many of my OTHER favorite bands. Can’t lose! Love this, Give it a listen, it has a nice beat for walking and riding.

What does the day teach us?

I was happy to go riding with Mark on the river and get some gentle exercise, though the HEAT is still with us. We slogged our way on the path, met an amazing cancer survivor who shared his story with us and reminded Mark and me that we are oh, so lucky to be well and have the time to ride on a beautiful day – even if it WAS darn hot.

Then after I replied to a few comments here and answered emails, I quit putting off my task and I focused on READING. Yep reading. I got 1/3 of the way through All the Light We Cannot See: A Novel by Anthony Doerr. It’s an interesting parallel story about a blind French girl and a German boy whose paths collide in occupied France as both try to survive the devastation of World War II. Since my heritage is German and my dad, US born, served in WW II this is both personal and interesting. If you love character driven books and history, I highly recommend it.

Today

Reading. Then more work on my animation voice assignments. I realize I need to get back to more focus, more consistent practice and quit dicking around so much. I LOVE voice acting, I BELIEVE I can develop the skill to audition commercially, and it is TIME to invest my own time in myself. Hmmm, another cool lesson there for the show maybe.

Oh well, off to read and practice then this evening Mark and I go off to writing group for more writing adventures.

Have a great day BCs!

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

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Body Balance


BB (Body Balance) number: 8.
Sleep: 6 hours undivided.
Tummy/Gut: Balanced.
Hungry: 3 hours after waking. Going to make breakfast now.
Energy: High Moderate.
Mood: Focused and full of self-belief

BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.

If you are interested these are my measures.

  1. Sleep. Quality and Amount.
  2. Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
  3. Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
  4. What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
  5. A quick look at my mood.

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4 thoughts on “3-18-15

  1. dawny

    Happy day Laurie…

    touching base..

    All this ‘feeling feeling’ that im doing, im coming to realize that often times i just plain don’t WANT to FEEL my feelings, and maybe.. just maybe.. that’s why I have turned to food so much?!?! aside from habits of course.. But im realizing too that often, it’s that im not paying attention to the fact that NON-HUNGER directed eating is a sign of something else going on some-where.. WOW! to think!!

    throwing away, and/or saving food is a lot harder than one might imagine for a compulsive eater, but I feel practicing this is making it easier, remembering that I can eat it again later, and it will be just as good, or that I can ditch it and eat something more lovely when Im hungry again, I will say when Im successful at doing this, it sure breeds the feeling of wanting to do it again. LOL

    Eating mindfully it’s TRULY TRULY amazing HOW much 1/2 c of icecream REALLY is.. you see and/or think 1/2 c. yah right.. but seriously in a dish, with some frozen cherries 1/2 c of vanilla ice-cream is a LOT and when I was done, I had really had enough and was satisfied..

    To keep the momentum going…..

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    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      im coming to realize that often times i just plain donโ€™t WANT to FEEL my feelings, and maybe.. just maybe.. thatโ€™s why I have turned to food so much?!?!

      Yep, this is my biggest subconscious trigger. This is where my friends the Robot Aliens swoop in. Not only does the eating distract me from emotions in the moment, but my focus on “Why was I EATING so much?” etc. distracts me from bigger issues I don’t want to face. I think, “I’m horrible for letting the Robot Aliens in” instead of facing what was really going on with me. Distraction, pushing uncomfortable thoughts and feelings away is my main issue. Doesn’t mean it is yours, but sounds like maybe it is, at least partially. It is tough, because to work on this one, you have to allow yourself to feel feelings BEFORE the binge. Wowser. It’s all bravery report stuff gal, bravery. And we all know you have bravery in spades! xoxoxoxox

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      1. Dawny

        I love how we are going full circle.

        I’ve learned a lot n value it all from Weight Watchers but as we’ll continue to grow. I need to get to the roots of my compulsive eating and food obsessions.

        Awhile back you told me you didn’t think I REALLY fully legalized ALL foods and I think you were right. Now I’m not really thinking good/bad etc. I’m thinking what I want when I’m hungry and eating until it’s enough
        The stopping point is very hard still. But slow but sure.

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