Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 23, 2015

Status 3-23-15*

Yesterday felt like an odd mix of despair and hope. About food? Naw, fuhgeddaboudit! I was freaking myself out again about voice acting and puzzling my way through why I feel so scared of even practicing at home, when it is something I WANT to do.

I felt better after writing, even though it felt weird to write instead of talk, and decided to practice. Bam. Too much strain still. Rest was better. Still, didn’t want to give up on goals, so searched for some books to maybe help with acting in general and voice animation acting in particular.

Found a few I liked and let myself relax and take in some of the information. (Knowing that some of my procrastination behavior is research vs. action). I made a pact to find some ACTIONABLE info and put it into practice.

While I have good vocal warm-ups from singing, I found a GREAT series of body relaxation and body prep for voice exercises in one book. So I just now recorded these for myself so I can play them from my iPad through Mark’s fancy bluetooth speaker and will try them out.

I think it will help me quite a bit to focus and relax.

I also really focused my practice imagination yesterday on making the line readings fun for the audience. We’ll see how that changes things today. I believe my voice is rested enough for a small rehearsal, but I do need to leave enough for my singing voice lesson today.

Today

As I said, back to singing lessons today after a small break for travel. I think Viki will be pleased as I HAVE practiced and worked on my breathing. Hopefully, soon, I will be able to do my song technically well enough that I can work on the character of it. Then I’ll record a bit for you all and you can see the difference from when I FIRST began learning it around day 100’s bravery day. (The ONLY part of that show I regret is recording my singing when my voice was so wacked up). But bravery it was, so I live with that.

Schedule: Answer comments from yesterday. Partial voice acting warm-up and line read. Vocal rest and loads of water. Then Singing lesson. Then walk in the park or Yoga. (I don’t want to go to the park prior to expose myself to more allergens). Then write Show 106 to possibly record tomorrow on a hike.

Hey, Cheryl called the bravery hotline with HER take on StΓ©fanie’s vanity question from day 105. If YOU want to be part of that discussion for show 106 too, check out the audio page and send me your thoughts. OR go post your comments about “Is it vanity to want to look good as a weigh loss motivator?” on Day 105.

xoxoxoxoxo

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Suspending Body Balance

Long time BCs have heard me post and talk about my body balance number. It was a REALLY useful tool, but I’m suspending it for awhile as I think I have learned from it and want to move on to just mentally processing how I feel.

Feel free to check out earlier status reports to see what I counted and how it worked.

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2 thoughts on “3-23-15

  1. dawny

    it’s so weird how we do these types of things to ourselves isn’t Laurie?? with some searching im sure you are going to figure it out, you are ONE VERY DETERMINED gal, and I know you’ll keep to it..
    Great job using your senses (ha ha) and making decisions on what’s best for your voice =-) some-times life sure throws us curve-balls, you are much better than I at catching them tho, me i just try to be shera and push thru everything =-( not always coming out on my feet.. DOH!!

    Im sure learning stuff about myself tho, and.. my ‘habits’ and where they may be coming from

    you know.. I got REALLY pretty hungry… I didn’t eat because I was ‘saving’ for an anticipated dinner out, and I wanted to be hungry.. little did I know that the timing on that would be beyond what i’d anticipated and wow, what a mistake, AND even tho I ate my dinner, and thoroughly enjoyed it.. I was physically AND mentally satisfied (or so I thought), I didn’t finish all my food, I put it away, I’d had enough (dessert included) as the night drug on I found myself VERY grumpy, irritable, aggitated, AND this unsatiable desire to eat.. I have to come to realize something… I think that depriving myself of food when I was really hungry did infact alter my brain some-how, and im not being festicious.. there REALLY IS something to this on-demand feeding thing, and teaching our bodies that we ARE going to feed it when it is hungry.. and although I basically skipped an eating experience, and felt satiated at my next opportunity my body KNEW i’d missed some calories it wanted/needed? and there-for was driving me by cravings? and I was nutritionally balanced, there-for the grumpy, irritable, aggitated..
    I have found in the past that when I wasn’t feeling stomach hungry, I had other signs indicated I may be needing nourishment, and others around me noticed it as well, the same symptoms as above..

    this is VERY insightful to me, and I am going to use this feed-back to guide me.. I should have satiated my hunger with something of small substance as a ‘hold-over’ and even if it meant I was ‘less hungry’ or not ‘hungry yet’ for the dining expereince I’d of dealt with it..

    lessons learned eh??

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    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Hi Dawny, what you describe is something I used to do too. It makes sense to “put off eating” so you can enjoy a special party or dinner. But it is so true, that when we get overly hungry, all thought (and most enjoyment) goes out the window too. I also think that those of us who have long time eating issues, tend to panic when we feel hungry. It is all so strange to us. That’s why I usually have a small meal before going out, or at least, a small bag of nuts, since they curb my hunger without making me feel stuffed. (I also keep a small bag of nuts in my purse or bike bag in case I’m delayed in getting to eat). It sounds like you are learning so much about your own hunger cues, congrats! Every bit you learn is one step closer to living the life you desire. xoxoxoxoxoxox

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