Ep 0044 – Why Me? Movin’ and Groovin’ with a bad back and the party-time blues

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Here I am with my trusty cane ready to hobble over to my ‘back of park’ shady big rock to record episode 44.

Podcast Recap

A sudden bad back forces me to practice getting over “Why Me?” as I hobble around Descanso Gardens. Michelle McKinney’s comment makes me think about “Why me?” striking at parties and how we might nip that feeling in the bud before the Robot Aliens can attack! Long time listener, Michelle shares what it was like to be on the show via the bravery hotline and leaves a detailed comment about Binge Extinction from her ongoing therapy. Shout-outs to new listener, Sunshine and to returning, commenter, Stéfanie from Canada.

Squirrel spread-eagled on its belly in a shady patch of cement walkway.

SO DARN HOT even the squirrels were spread-eagled hugging the cooler cement in the shade. At first I thought they were injured as I saw several in this strange position on my walk around Descanso Gardens recording episode 44, but they all sprang up at my approach and resumed scampering up trees and running around, so I guess this is a method of squirrel air conditioning!

Big boulder in the shade

My trusty ‘back of park’ big rock for recording at Descanso Gardens as it is nicely positioned in the shade. Yesterday, when I recorded episode 44, it was a bit low to sit on, but I managed with the help of my cane to perch against it.

Meadow of tall white flowers

This is a meadow of flowers I happened upon and liked.


Stéfanie’s comment on day 18

New Brave Companion Sunshine’s comment. Please welcome her!

Michelle’s Comment with the tips for BINGE-EXTINCTION

Super Brain: Unleashing the Explosive Power of Your Mind to Maximize Health, Happiness, and Spiritual Well-Being Amazon link to one of the books recommended by Michelle about brain retraining

The Willpower Instinct: How Self-Control Works, Why It Matters, and What You Can Do to Get More of It Amazon link to the other book Michelle recommended about brain retraining

My Reply to Michelle

Michelle Mac’s (McKinney’s) reply to us both

Michelle McKinney’s post on the Who are the brave companions page

Our new “Who are the Brave Companions” page. Come tell your story!

Cheryl’s blog, Cheryl’s post on Wellsprings and Dragonfly Wings inspired by Josh’s song

Cheryl’s comment discussing her thoughts on Josh’s song, and where she applauds Michelle for calling the bravery hotline

Last episode 43 about All or Nothing Thinking

Episode 12 – about Plan “Be”

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Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

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Resource of the day

Eating Disorders and Social Anxiety Disorder
by Arlin Cuncic a social anxiety disorder specialist. This article looks at the possible link between Eating Disorders and Social Anxiety Disorder. A Sentence that rang out to me was,

Fear of eating in public is a symptom common of both SAD and eating disorders.

A bit dry, but an interesting read.

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2 thoughts on “Ep 0044 – Why Me? Movin’ and Groovin’ with a bad back and the party-time blues

  1. Cheryl

    First off, that picture of the squirrel made me laugh right out loud. What in the world was he doing???

    Secondly, I was so caught off guard by something in Michelle Mc’s reply that you read that I thought about it all through the podcast and I’m wondering if I need to go back and listen to your Diary discourse again! What Michelle said that got my attention was that she wanted to be just like everyone else when she was eating around people. That she just wanted to fit it.

    Such a simple concept yet it has gone right over my head. I think once you’ve seen a therapist for something or other (for me it was grief counseling and headaches) you start over-thinking things. You can get caught up in looking too deeply at something. I THINK that’s what I’ve been doing with my whole fellowship time issue at church. (Which is not helped by the fact that everyone there just fills up their plates, too.)

    When I’m out with the homies (just us girls or even as couples) I KNOW it’s the companionship that I’m craving and enjoying. I can sit there all night and talk and talk (have been known to close places down on more than one occasion!) and take three hours to eat what I’ve ordered. It’s not about the food. That’s why figuring Sunday out has been difficult. I kept thinking it WAS about the food. Or a sweet tooth. Or the great companionship. But as many theories as I’ve come up with about why that half hour is so difficult for me, none of them really seemed to square up. Till I heard Michelle’s comments.

    The fact is, I really, really want to fit in with all those folks. Well, maybe it’s a LITTLE different than that. I don’t want to STICK OUT by being the one to NOT pig out on all that food. Church is such a big part of our life, it’s really more like family as there’s only me and my sis left in our family (though we have a brother back east). I’m thinking as I sit here that being just like them is a security blanket for me. Which is a hoot since I am SO different from most Christians you’d normally meet. I have wildly differing views on things. But then maybe that’s why fitting in there is so important to me. My theology is not terrifically orthodox. And I’m not quiet about what I believe. Or what I disagree with, see differently.

    So Michelle’s words are pinging around in my head at the moment. I do have to say I was intrigued by what you said about how after the third or fourth bite of something the thrill is over (so to speak). (I can only think of one thing I would think otherwise about — raspberry mocha frappucinos from Starbucks.) I’m going to have to do what you suggested and put that to the test. Very interesting… Think I’ll re-listen to your podcast while I’m doing dishes!

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Hi Cheryl, thanks for stopping by again. You will think it’s funny since your comment came on Day 44 right between my recording and publishing of Day 45, which described my insecurity trigger from day 44 having Zero comments! Also The wonderful Michelle Mc made some very interesting observations about day 44 on day 43 🙂 I think you may have finally cracked your fellowship code! Fitting in is the thing – interesting. I’ll love to hear if this thought makes it different for you next week. As to the squirrel, he was one of many I saw doing the same darn thing that day. It was just so hot, I think they were laying their bellies on the cooler cement to cool down, just like a dog might. At first, I thought they were all passed away, until they scampered off at my approach. Very surreal day, day 44.


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