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Intuitive Eating Update – I’m still learning a lot about how my body tells me things

Scrambled eggs and veggies on a plate wrapped in clear film to be put into the refrigerator
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Hello Brave Companions!

I think this is the FIRST time I’ve ever wrapped up some of my breakfast when I had prepared what is a usual serving for me. I’m so used to calorie counting that I prepare and eat whatever I make! When eating out I do regularly bring home leftovers and will stop eating when satisfied since US restaurant portions are WAY OVERSIZED for what I can eat. But I have never done this before at home. Hmmm interesting. It may be that I need to serve myself MORE food so I can feel it’s ok to stop eating when satisfied.

What’s that you say body? Speak up, I can’t quite hear you!

It is so surprisingly difficult to understand body’s cries and coos after 50 years of ignoring or suppressing hunger/fullness signals. Yesterday afternoon, I ate when I knew I wasn’t really hungry, because I was nervous and edgy, BUT because of my practice could not really eat much, because I was SO aware of how full I was after very few bites. This AM I woke up with that weird empty/full feeling that happens when your gut is still working on yesterday and your tummy is empty today. I decided to eat a little and see what happens. It took very little egg and toast for tummy to feel ok. I actually wrapped up the rest of my breakfast for later. In the past, I would have tried to wait to eat for several hours until my gut was as empty as my tummy, feeling that I didn’t deserve to eat yet. This new approach of feeding tummy worked much better. I feel balanced and peaceful. My energy is now back where it should be, and thoughts of food are for once, not on my mind. Very interesting process. Again, not easy. Not quick weight loss, or even guaranteed weight loss, but right in line with my goal of living where I don’t fear food, love food, and live an integrated life where relationships with people take precedence.

Thanks: Yesterday’s podcast episode had LOADS of content and I really got a lot out of listening to it while editing. Thanks Tove for posting, Lisa for calling the bravery hotline and Stephanie from Germany for giving me permission to read your brave letter.
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Ep 0055 – Robot Aliens as Good Guys? Intuitive Eating and Hallo Stephanie!

Laurie with her cane under a tree
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The cane is again my companion as I hobble around the park due to a run-in with an icepack gone wrong!

Podcast Recap

Stéfanie and Cheryl give me a lot to think about as we discover how Robot Aliens are actually my protectors. I share how I’m finally learning to understand myself through therapy and intuitive eating techniques help me make peace with my body. Lisa from Boston calls the bravery hotline with her book recommendation and I’m thrilled that Stephanie writes me from Germany. I finally discover how to look at all of the international iTunes stores and see the brave companions’ reviews in countries outside of the U.S., and we give a big welcome shout-out to our newest listener and brave companion, Tove.
Tiger the cat on Laurie's lap at the computer.

Here’s my little podcast assistant, Tiger. He loves to help with FB posting and show editing. Maybe he should get a production credit?

Close up of ice-pack burn on my knew

Ouch! Here’s the burn on my left knee from letting an icepack remain against my bare skin by accident. Don’t do that! I always ice my knee after bike riding, and this time it bit me.

Mentioned

Brand new listener and Brave Companion Tove’s hello post on Day 6. Please welcome Tove!

Stéfanie’s comment noticing the change in Robot Alien role on day 54

Cheryl’s agreement comment

My reply to Stéfanie and Cheryl

My German Song on Day 16

My episode about body size not indicating whether you have an eating issue on Day 18

The episode about how hard it is to balance getting over binge eating while dieting on Day 9

Eating in the Light of the Moon

Eating in the Light of the Moon: How Women Can Transform Their Relationship with Food Through Myths, Metaphors, and Storytelling

Intuitive Eating

Intuitive Eating

Want to have Fun Being Foolish too?

Participate in our new feature called “Foolish Fun“. Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on https://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
And tell us a joke, riddle, a silly story, limerick, sing a song, play a kazoo, ANYTHING but talk about compulsive eating. This is the feature where messing up is just part of the act! No names required and Silly Aliases are AOK! Need ideas? See Day 54’s Resource of the Day for my page of ToonaCat Jokes

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My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Resource of the day

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Ep 0054 – Therapy and Foolish Fun!

Laurie sits at a table in a pink striped tank top checking out her recorder in the park
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It’s really hot! Here I am in my sleeveless shirt getting ready to don my hat and walk around the park spilling my guts about therapy and introducing our new ‘Foolish Fun’ feature.

Podcast Recap

Therapy is tough, so after sharing my experience I lighten the mood by introducing a new feature called Foolish Fun. Hear the song that lets me hold and pet Gracie every morning even though she is a skittish and touch-adverse kitty. Cheryl comments on Day 53. Shout-outs to Debcaf2 for her 5-star review on iTunes and to Michelle once again for her excellent comment on Day 43 about Binge Extinction techniques.
Laurie's hat, water and assorted stuff on the picnic table at the park

The picnic table at the park where I usually eat my green apple and ‘mic up’ prior to walking and talking.

Gracie the cat laps milk

Gracie laps up her milk on the VERY day the Milky Song was recorded for Laurie’s Foolish Fun

Grace, a traditional tabby and Tiger, a marmalade tabby, sit side by side gazing out of a window

Gracie and Tiger – Mama and Son, like peas in a pod. Love them!

Mentioned

Cheryl’s great comment about using a check register as another method to lighten up against perfection on Day 53

Michelle’s epic post about Binge-Extinction on Day 43

Want to be Foolish too?

Hey BCs! We’re adding a another new feature called “Foolish Fun“. You’ll hear Mark’s new intro in today’s show just to lighten the mood. I start off as the first Foolish one by by singing my cat’s Milky Song. Yes, I sing to my old cat every single day when it’s time for her to get her milk. Want to be Foolish too? Just call the bravery hotline 206-350-6445 or check out the send audio page on https://www.compulsiveovereatingdiary.com/how-to-send-audio/
And tell us a joke, riddle, a silly story, limerick, sing a song, play a kazoo, ANYTHING but talk about compulsive eating. This is the feature where messing up is just part of the act! No names required and Silly Aliases are AOK! Need ideas? See today’s Resource of the Day

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Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
    http://www.freesound.org/people/plingativator/sounds/188873/
  • Background Tune/Beat
    http://www.freesound.org/people/siakitty/sounds/38478/
  • Girl’s Laughter
    http://www.freesound.org/people/choplin/sounds/109759/
  • Phone Ring
    http://www.freesound.org/people/winsx87/sounds/152028/

Resource of the day

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Therapy Zero Hour – Bravely Meeting Myself Head-on

Laurie by some prayer rocks at the top of the hiking trail
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I happily discover somebody else’s prayer rocks at my upper Zen place and so send positive thoughts and prayers out to that person. I’ve found that to be a good remedy for my nerves. Find somebody else to wish well – takes the spotlight off of all that might go wrong with me.

A lone tree in the vista of distance hills from a desert-like hiking trail.

Is it any wonder that I feel peaceful and away from my worries up here? This is about half-way to my upper Zen place/


Morning US West Coasties! Good Day or Evening to you other brave companions. I’m endlessly grateful that there are brave companions from all over the world! Who knew that our common eating issues AND compasion stretched so far to connect us? I don’t know about you, but it makes me feel much less alone to have all of you to speak to and to hear from.

Yesterday was a good day. I was nervous of meeting my new therapist. It’s kind of like a first date. But it turned out very positively and I can tell this will help me very much on my journey. To process some of the deep issues in my life with the aid of professional help, will help me to finally “let go” of some of the root causes of my food issues – and, more importantly, the issues that keep me from connecting as I would like with people in my life. I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer. It may happen, but dealing with life is my answer. And dealing with life won’t happen as long as the Robot Aliens have sway with me. So baby steps, dear companions.

I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer.

I’m thrilled too, that being so nervous yesterday AM, that I chose to go hiking instead of losing myself in eating. Hiking was my first thought. Even better that I chose to not record it, as I wanted to protect my back by not carrying my recorder, little book, apple, extra water etc. all of the accoutrements that are needed for my show at the Zen Place. This time, I just took myself. And that was appropriate on a day that was for once, without guilt, all about me.

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Ep 0053 – Finding Emotional Support and Stéfanie’s Secret Topic 2

Laurie holds back her hat brim under the Camellia bushes
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I have fun playing like I’m Mary Tyler Moore among the Camellia bushes at Descanso.

Podcast Recap

Emotions run wild as I learn how to face life without numbing it with diets and bingeing. Looking for a photo from my childhood inspires a blog post about reintergrating both pain and joy that I’ve blocked out. I ponder finding a therapist to help me. New brave companion Millie asks if it seems odd to wish her sisters would all join her on her journey so they could be learning together. Cheryl, Stéfanie and I comment. We end with Stéfanie’s Secret Topic 2. What will come to mind as I hear Stéfanie’s newest Secret Topic at the same time as you do?
A single camellia peeks out in the bush near a handy bench among the trees.

A single camellia peeks out in the bush near a handy bench among the trees.

Mentioned

Millie’s question about her sisters and her desire to be on the same path with them on Day 52

My thoughts on Millie’s question

Cheryl’s supportive reply to Millie

Stéfanie’s equally supportive reply to Millie

My Dancing and Memory Box blog post – see my tiny ballerina photo

The Day with the Meditation resource Cheryl checked out. Scroll down to “Resource of the Day”.

So You Think You Can Dance – TV website

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Laurie on Tumblr

My page with instructions for all of the ways (so far) that you can send audio and lend your voice to this podcast.

New free way to leave voicemail http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver You can also click the blue button on this page that says ‘send a voice message.’

Bravery Hotline

Leave your comments, questions, feelings and stories on Laurie’s podcast voicemail hotline – 206-350-6445.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Stéfanie’s Secret Topic Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Stéfanie’s Secret Topic concept, content and voice by: Stéfanie Lepage

Main Theme:I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1

I’m Letting Go (Josh Woodward) / CC BY 3.0

Sounds used in Stéfanie’s Secret Topic Intro

  • Space background loop
    http://www.freesound.org/people/zagi2/sounds/178573/
  • Space Alien ray gun zap sound
    http://www.freesound.org/people/NoiseCollector/sounds/43041/
  • The Human Has been Neutralised
    http://www.freesound.org/people/cityrocker/sounds/128649/
  • Eating Chips
    http://www.freesound.org/people/fresco/sounds/48933/
  • Zen Cello
    http://www.freesound.org/people/Nightlife999/sounds/144971/

Resource of the day


A trip down memory lane in the US. Watch again the opening of the iconic Mary Tyler Moore Show on YouTube. The show aired on CBS from 1970 to 1977 (The year I graduated High School). The program was a television breakthrough, with the first never-married, independent career woman as the central character:
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