Ep 0120 – The Grand Finale

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So long, Adieu, Auf Wiedersehen, Adiós, Cheerio! From Mark and me in our new sound studio. We’ve had a great time making this show and we send you much love along with it.

Podcast Recap

The epic end of the series. I visit all three of my regular podcast spots and walk down memory lane as well as look toward the future. Features include – a new song by BC Fionna Lane titled A Light in the Dark. A live radio play written by BC David Glowen, directed by David Babich and starring professional and student voice actors. Good-bye audio messages from Cheryl, Sue from the UK, BC Dave, Stéfanie from Quebec, María from Spain and Fionna. Foolish Fun with Dawny Taylor. Stéfanie’s Secret Topic. Stories read by members of the writing group. Good-bye comments from BCs. We welcome the last new BC, Petra. An interview with Alen Standish. Hear my work in the sound booth with voice acting director David Babich as we work on my professional demo. Mark stands in one last time for my scale, and much much more!

At Descanso Gardens

Laurie blows a kiss near an oak tree

A kiss from Descanso Gardens

A wooden bench near an oak tree

The actual podcast bench by the dry river bed at Descanso Gardens

dry river bed

The view of the dry river bed from the podcast bench at Descanso Gardens

Mentioned at Descanso Gardens

Cheryl’s blog, Impromptu Promptlings
Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin’s Win the Diet War

Ways to continue to support the show financially

At The Podcast Rock at My Local Park

Laurie in glasses smiling with hat brim turned up

I’m having fun recording Stéfanie’s Secret Topic on the podcast rock

Boulders in the woods under trees

The actual podcast rock from my local park.

trees and brush in the back of the park

The view from the podcast rock at my local park

Mentioned at the podcast rock

Alen Standish’s new show, Inner Effort
Write It Up! The Writing Group Mark and I attend
Stéfanie’s IG account, Weightloss_Stef

At The Next To Upper Zen Spot

Laurie holds her recorder near her face. Slightly sad look to her eyes.

That’s a wrap! I just got through recording how much I really, really, really, really, really care on day 120.

Wooden bench in some brush near a tree

The actual bench at the Next to Upper Zen Spot

Sunrise seen from the mountain

The early morning view from the Next to Upper Zen Spot the day I finished recording Day 120

Mentioned at the Next to Upper Zen Spot

Actor and Director, David Babich
Fionna’s Blog, Fionna Sings
My Bravery Twitter Account, TheBraveryCoach
My IG Account, LaurieDreamWeaver


Host: Laurie Weaver
Special Guest interview: Alen Standish of Inner Effort
Special Guest interview and Laurie in the Sound Booth Voice Acting Direction: David Babich of David Babich Studio
Laurie’s Stories Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Dave vs.The Robot Aliens Written by: Dave Glowen
Dave vs.The Robot Aliens Directed by: David Babich
Dave vs.The Robot Aliens Cast:

  • Taylor Watkins as Dave
  • David Babich as Robot Alien #1
  • Ray Holdridge as Robot Alien #2
  • Valerie Schrementi (Alvarez) as Robot Alien #3
  • Laurie Weaver as herself

Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Laurie’s Foolish Funner: Dawny Taylor
Stéfanie’s Secret Topic Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Stéfanie’s Secret Topic concept, content and voice by: Stéfanie Lepage
Mark’s No-Diet Report Intro Announcer: Mark Weaver
Bravery Alert Announcer: Mark Weaver
Writing Group Member Stories
The Judge written and read by Peter (J.P.) Bumstead
The Birch Bat written and read by Jake Terrell
The Collector written and read by Samantha Marquis
The Beach written and read by Mark Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

Featured Song

Light in the Dark
Music and Lyrics by Fionna Lane
Hear More of Fionna’s music on Soundcloud
Fionna’s Blog, Fionna Sings

Light in the Dark

Well the time has come
I must move on
We have come to journey’s end
So I’ll say “goodbye” and I’ll be on my way
I will carry memories with me
And I’ll always call you “friend”
I’ve a feeling we will meet again one day

Thank you for loving me selflessly
You gave me strength to find what I need
We’ll be apart, but you’re always in my heart
I hope you know
You were my light in the dark

What will I do in my new life?
Gonna travel ’round the world
I’ll be anywhere I want to be
The best part is I’m livin’
And I’m brave and feeling free
And I’ll proudly say “I’m happy to be me!”


At last I’m not scared of my tears
I let them fall
Free as the wind
Your words helped me conquer my fears
And I love you all
I love you all

(Repeat chorus

Laurie Sings Intro and Outro

America : My country ’tis of thee (Metropolitan Quartet)
Composer: Smith, Samuel Francis
Performer: Metropolitan Quartet
Date Issued: 1914

Sounds Used in Mark’s Bravery Alert

  • Alarm
  • Bravery Alert Music
  • News beeps

Sounds Used in Laurie’s Stories Open and Close

  • Music Theme
  • Applause
  • British Welcome
  • Pages Turning
  • Cello Loop

Sounds Used in Dave Vs. Robot Aliens

  • Knock on Door
  • Space Music 2
  • Opening Space Music
  • Creaking Door
  • Door Slam
  • Dun Dun Dun
  • Laurie Memory Music
  • Space Choir
  • Evil Childish Laughter
  • Ending Choir

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
  • Background Tune/Beat
  • Girl’s Laughter
  • Phone Ring

Sounds used in Stéfanie’s Secret Topic Intro

  • Space background loop
  • Space Alien ray gun zap sound
  • The Human Has been Neutralised
  • Eating Chips
  • Zen Cello

Sounds used in Mark’s No-Diet Report Intro

  • News Jingle
  • News Ting

Sounds Used in the Writing Group Stories

The Judge

  • Epic music
    Mike TheTunk Woloszyn” www.Senproductions.de
  • Courtroom crowd
  • gavel
  • laser gun
  • Fart

The Birch Bat

  • Ukulele background music
  • Bat and crowd
  • ballpark organ and crowd
  • birds
  • axe

The Collector

  • Metal Clink
  • Soundtrack
  • Police are close
  • Key fob chirp

The Beach

  • Ocean
  • Flute
  • Seagull

Other Sounds

  • Crowd Cheering
  • Crowd awww
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15 thoughts on “Ep 0120 – The Grand Finale

  1. Dawny

    Oh Em GEEEEE! Oh me oh my,
    you NEVER NEVER fail to represent!! wahooooooooo go team!!!!!!

    LOVE this episode, I did a double… er. uhm okay, TRIPLE take when I downloaded the episode, and saw the duration of it! wawhoooop! =-) it was TRULY TRULY enjoyable,

    I love being able to live vicariously thru EVERYONE’s ability to say good-bye and terms of endearment, in-case you never yet figured it out, I DON’T do good-byes well, and shut down/off instead of dealing with it =-( explains the sudden MIA….

    I really liked this episode, and the readings, feelings, emotions, and loveliness,

    thanks for everything, and to everyone, and I eagerly anticipate future updates, and correspondences.. wahoooo team BC’s forever and always

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      OMG!!! How the HECK did you listen to that whole dang thing before 8:00 am in the morning? I just published last night. Wow! Well it’s long enough you can probably listen a few times and discover new things. Great to see you back in action posty 😉 And I TOTALLY get what you mean about disappearing to deal. I’m a ghosty myself and am trying to work that through. Hence the BIG notice to the BCs and a long good-bye vs. a “F” it, I’m done disappearing act (most podcasts kinda fade away like that). Plus I really did have fun with the stories and that kind of thing, so I might dabble a bit more once my demo is up and running. Bonus episodes will come. Might have to rename the series from day 121+ to Creative Online Diary xoxoxoxoxoxox

          1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

            Ahhh, Thanks Dave! And thanks again too for letting me have such fun with your RA radio play. David did the voice edit, I did the music and sound edit, then David did a final. It was awesome to collaborate all the way around, and terribly exciting. Yep, might like to ride that train a bit more. Right now, I’m dealing with some health things, annoying vs. serious, and trying to get my demo back on track. But I’m still around, will write something in a day or two, and I’ll do a bonus show once I have something to say, or some project to present. xoxoxoxo

  2. Fionna

    Laurie, brava! Such a fabulous finale 😄. I am so impressed with how your singing voice has progressed, by the way! You have a steady, clear tone, and you sound much more confident when you sing. When I messaged you that day way back when, it really was quite a leap for me. I struggle all the time with my low self esteem, so before I pressed “send” on that message of encouragement, I had to shoo away Mr. Negativity, who was telling me “she doesn’t care what you think!” Encouraging you has been somewhat of a healing process for me. Take care, Laurie, and I’ll keep in touch.

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Thanks so much Fionna! I’m so glad you enjoyed this looooooong, loooooooog, extravaganza! And thanks too for your wonderful song. I’m still amazed at how perfectly you captured the moment for me. And don’t let me leave without thanking you again for your nice words about my singing. Your story about being afraid to encourage is really powerful. How many times in my life, have I held back for the very same reason? Now, I try to say my positive thoughts – because not only does it generally bring a smile to the other person, but like you say, it is healing for me. I think, I was very prone to slipping into the negative, and this is one way for me to keep my focus on the positive. Well, my dear, I am living proof of the good that one small action may make. I am so glad I learned to sing finally. And I’m very happy you hear improvement. Honestly, that is still the toughest for me, to let others hear me sing. But I am getting to the place of feeling confident enough that I will at least hit most of the notes, that I do sing the Star Spangled Banner at ball games and happy birthday with everyone else at a party now. And, just like body image improvement, I’m learning to not care how perfect my singing is in those instances. Hmmm, I had a new wrinkle to social anxiety, I had singing anxiety! And now, with your help, I do not. That is super cool! Hugs, and I’m glad you’ll stay in touch, there’s always a hike or walk down here with your name on it. xoxoxoxox

  3. Dave Glowen

    Wow that is awesome, we kindly demand an Encore!!! Encore!!!

    Seriously that was a wonderful listen, we are so grateful to all who participated, once a BC always a BC. Grateful we are not alone in this battle.

    It will take me several more listens to process all the emotions…

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      xoxoxox – I doubt I have the stamina for an encore, but thanks for the support! That show was a HUGE project – made day 100 look like a walk in the park, but I’m very happy and proud with how it turned out. You have it right, show or no show, we remain BCs forever!

      1. Kathy


        Sad to read you have stopped doing podcast!
        Such an inspiration; I know you’re going to shine with your new horizons xxx
        Love & best,

        1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

          Hi Kathy, thanks so much for stopping by and for your encouragement! I still do update bonus shows every month or so with COD and am also having fun with my newest show, Stories and Voice. I’d love it if you would give it a listen and let me know what you think. Big hugs and thanks again, always love to hear from BCs. oxoxoxoxox

  4. Suz

    Awww nobody has ever called me “beloved” before in my life! So thanks for that.
    Such a wonderful episode full of sharing and talent. *sniff* I don’t want it to end. I feel like Amy…you’re moving on and I’m still kinda stuck. I always feel like I’m left behind and never figure things out.
    I feel like the cheerio that bounces off the edge of the cereal bowl and falls on the floor and skitters under the fridge, where it just sits gathering dust and never fulfills its intended purpose.
    It does sound more and more though like you’re focusing on what you really want to DO instead of what you’d like to weigh or look like. So that’s positive. Your focus has naturally shifted away from CO. Right now I’m reading “Brain Over Binge” and she talks about not focusing attention on your eating disorders, because that just reinforces the neural pathways and strengthens the pattern. Rather, just be aware of it…not the same thing as giving it attention, and observe neutrally (just like in mindful eating) and that will weaken the pathway (or so she says!). She said she still had urges to binge, but that her new perspective that her “lower” or “animal” brain was conditioned to binge, and her prefrontal cortex or “higher” brain had the choice to act on the urge or not. I don’t know how simply framing the thought like that could lessen a powerful binge urge, but I’m still reading that part. I just liked the part where she said when the urge would arise, she was able to view it objectively as just “neurological junk.” I think we all probably have a lot of neurological junk.
    I’ve been out of work too much lately with chronic headaches, depression, and fatigue. And when I say fatigue, I mean I can sleep 17-18 hours in a row. I’m just wiped out. I’m starting to realize that my depression is a big part of what has held me back in life. It has kept this cheerio under the fridge.
    I was listening to a TED talk the other day (love those) about some experiment in deep brain stimulation with electricity. (I think that was it). They tried it on extremely depressed people…stimulated certain areas of the brain, and it said that within about 10 to 15 seconds (!!!!) they were feeling better. Lighter. Like a burden had been lifted. And here’s where I figured out that the opposite of depression is not happiness, it’s motivation. These test subjects didn’t suddenly say “I feel happy.” They said “I feel like DOING something.” I know those couple days that Abilify was working, I felt like doing things too. I had the energy. The body pains weren’t so intense. I felt motivated. I wanted to make plans. I could see things happening in my mind, I could see potential in myself. Two days wasn’t nearly enough. I’ve even read some article about magnet therapy to “reset” the brain. I sure wish there were a way that didn’t involve having to try all kinds of drugs one after the other and deal with the side effects, or deal with effectiveness suddenly dropping away. It’s too big a problem for me to think myself out of. I’m hoping science comes up with something good soon. In the meantime, I’m keeping my nose juuuust about the water.
    I hear about your progress and projects and I want to be like that. I want to know what I want and to have the motivation and the energy to try it. Right now I never know if the next day I’ll be able to get out of bed and go to work.
    I have listened to all the podcasts…thank you for all of them! In one of the last ones it seemed you were talking directly to me about your not wanting anyone to feel bad about not participating and that your ending the podcast wasn’t anyone’s fault. I was feeling awful about your feeling bad about people dropping off with participation, and then you said that, and I knew you really did understand. I didn’t want to go away. I was just overwhelmed.
    Thank you for everything. 🙂 I am still here.

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Hugs beloved Suz! Like BC Dave wrote in his latest comment, once a BC always a BC. And you will ALWAYS have a place in my heart, AND in my show, whatever it turns into. Here is one source of Public Domain piano music I found. Maybe you can take your time and find one to play. I’d be more than happy to put your playing in a bonus episode as I focus on my creative life! Don’t feel pressure, this is just an offer. Maybe a candle in the dark? Remember, I have had terrible depression my entire life, so I DO understand. xoxoxoxox

  5. Christy Chadderton

    I just found your podcast. I can’t say enough how grateful I am. I am only on episode 4 but have been listening to one or two a day. I am in the very beginning of admitting I have a problem. It feels good to know I’m not alone.

    1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post author

      Big hugs Christy and you are on the bravery report today for reaching out! I’m so glad that you found the show and that it’s helping. I found out by doing the show, that we are FOR SURE, not alone in these issues. The good news, is that most of the people who came along and participated were very creative, caring and wonderful people – so I’m very happy to welcome you to that group! Please post any questions or comments as you go along, even though I wrapped up the main show with Day 120, there are still some listeners around and I answer every comment. Thanks again for stopping by – especially as you were just on my famous ‘pathetic’ episode of day 4. That shows me you care. xoxoxox


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